Sorted Out.

Current Location: Jurong East Library.
Current Music: .. (what can you expect from a library? hees!)

well, i kinda see it through. the problems doesn't lie with daddy and sean finding me crazy for being so in touch with my emotions and all. but that, it's seriously me. other people who don't know me or whatsoever might see it that i'm being very dramatic. after the phrase, they would think that i have a princess attitude. but what is it actually? it's actually me. maybe because i thought that by having fits, it serves as an "excuse" for me to be able to be so in touch with my emotions i guess. but this is NOT an excuse.

i had always thought that i'm just very in touch with my emotions, and that it is a good thing. shows that i'm not hiding anything from anyone. but, the truth is. i'm feeling kinda terrible and crazy about it. why get so in touch with my emotions? it's not good for me, or my friends or my family! haha. bleahhh to my previous very-in-touch-with-my-emotions attitude. and terribly sorry to my girls who has been tolerating my temper for like ages and centuries ago. and even more apologies to my family! who had been giving in to me all the time. and to think i've never thought that it's MY problem. i'm so oh-my-god-self-centred.

and that i have such low self-confidence. eeek. i never knew i had so many problems! sheesh, guess i need to find some self-confidence back. and that i should really check that temper and attitude of mine. why get so agitated because of something that's fictional? why get so in touch with my emotions when i witness or see something sad? eew.

one more point is actually that, i feel that i have no backbone. ): lol, abit strange huh? but well really. i took in everything people tell me, i trust what everybody said. and .. in the end, i trust everybody ended getting myself hurt. now, from now on. i'll seriously have a mind of my own. hope it's still not too late or whatsoever. don't be afraid to voice out when you are hurt because you're afraid to offend someone. that's what happened like 10 months back. arghhs, now recalling back, i felt like such a dumbass. if you think that you can trick me again, you're so so so so wrong. i'm no longer the weak yvonne you knew back then. bleahhhhh.

daddy mommy eils and sean! i'm so sorry that i'll actually cause problems for you people with my stupid attitude. recalling back, i'm really such an asshole. oops. hees. but no worries! i'll definitely change for the better de. though might not be a complete angel. but at least! i want to be a daughter who my parents will be able to find comfort in, and an elder sis they can actually talk to. (:

i'm so glad for the presence of my girls mannz. my girls! seriously thanks load for your presence mannz. you girls taught me a lot of something about ME which even me myself don't know. hahahah!

things to get noted:
don't get so agitated about any other thing for goodness sake.
gain more self confidence pleaseeee.
and lastly, get a mind of your ownnnnn. if you don't like it, say it. don't keep it to yourseeeeeelf.

hees. phew, end of my "report" for the day. lol!

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no subject.

Current Location: Home, Study Room.
Current Music: 不夠成熟 - BY2.

just came across my pri sch fren's friendster and thus was led to her blog.. hmm.. i don't understand. how can one girl stray so much from her past? how can a girl be so loose and sleep around with anybody, getting on and off attached so fast? why can't she see that what those guys actually wanted were her body?

arghhs, thinking upon here i just felt upset over it. we were such good friends in pri sch. aiights, friends la. we used to be very very good friends. but after that incident she had with Dewey, our friendship sorta strained apart. maybe her character now started then, when she wanted to get involved with everyone of the girls' boys. heck the past.

she completed her secondary school and advanced to NYP, for nursing course. and now, she's schoolless. cos she quited school. i rmbr asking her, why would she wanna quit school since she's only 17? and she gave me a reply which i'll always expect. "i'm tired of school."

this feeling me is so strange.. we were two girls suppossingly the same when we were in pri sch. and now when we're in our tertiary education, things became so different. in terms of character wise, environment wise.. everything became so different.

i wonder how this actually happened.. hope the boyfriend she's having now will treat her good good really good. (:

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Contradicting.

Current Location: Home, Study Room.
Current Music: 不夠成熟 - BY2.

i finished my PP! haha. but i think i drifted away from my topic liao. eeek. hope my advisor will allow me to change my scope, if not i'll be dead. so dead you know. lol. aiights, i can't believe that i finish it in 24 hours. haha, stayed up till 2am plus before i can finish my work. haha. but glad that it's done liao la. wahahaha!

went to Sun Plaza Coffee Bean with Eils yesterday. yep, we're suppose to do our work there. her, revising her chemistry, me completing my PP. but apparantly, the cakes there were too tempting! haha, and when there's cakes and drinks and two girls, there's bound to be chats. and guess what, we chatted and talked all the way to 9pm plus. =X aiights, at least i can let my hair down for like a while? after a whole day of doing PP started at like 9am plus plus. haha.

my weekends. as per usual, dedicated all to Torpedo liaoz. kind of getting used to it liao. haha, the tiredness, the complains made by daddy and mommy that i hadn't been spending enough time with them.

and the debate on sunday night whether i should go to sleep or to watch my Yang Jia Jiang, since i have the dvds already. but still, for consecutive 3 weeks, the debate to watch always won. haha! but i criedddd on sunday! cos it's like all of them were preparing to go for their death, but stilll smiling and laughing so blissfully.

and next week. ohmygoddd. it's the "official death". i saw the preview and i already starting tearing liao. dad and sean always cannot stand me crying over little things from the telly and will started saying me stupid. idiotttt.

but heck care them, i don't like to supress my emotions inside me for too long. so next week shall be the time which i had mentioned long ago. cry like it is, and wake up with swollen eyes the next day. heng the next day no school no coaching!

sianns, am so not looking forward to next week. but at the same time looking too.. arghhs.

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Dinner @ Carousel with the Torpedians.

Current Location: Home, Study Room.
Current Music: What I Go To School For - Jonas Brothers.

heck, some problems jst cropped up. sheesh, yes i know. i should pull myself out of it, since it's so not my problems anymore. but i jst can't bear to leave him hanging there just now until eils tell me. "jie, it's no longer your problem. it's theirs, all the more you should keep out of it." sometimes i really have to make a hard decision after all. haiis.

aiights, i'm back to blog about an entry which i'm so supposed to blog about. Dinner @ Carousel with the Torpedians. haha! cos i've got the pictures from Rachel already! haha.

the dinner was great! wide great spread mannz. from Japanese food, to Seafood, to Western, to Asian. wow wow wow la! but what amazed me the most is the Desserts Section!! hees, they have my favourite Tiramisu, but not my another favourite the Brownie. so it's a (: and a ): aiights, i know i'm being lame here. lol. and well, i tried the Cheesecake. aiights, nice enough. maybe i can try the Chicago Cheesecake from Coffeebean since all my girls were so crazy about it. haha.

and Rachel dressed damn formal!! lol! and got this "long gou" where we can go "fishing"! lol! haha, hao la. don't comment on that too much. later read le will paiseh de. haha.

and Wei De and Shal got us a lil gift each! a cap! nike, cos Shal don't like adidas. lol. and the cap each has our name sewed on! :D hees, happy happy. i intended to get a cap already. cos the sun's really sunny mannz. so i actually intended to get one. but heng! now no need liao! cos they bought for us. wahahaha! but poor rachel! she just bought it the day before and they gave us the gift. haha!

next, we had a surprise for Sabrina. for it's to celebrate her birthday which actually fell on the monday. but nevermind la huh! haha, hope that she enjoyed herself. hees.

after that, loads of camwhoring. but i didn't la. and i'm serious hor. cos without my girls, i find it abit weird to camwhore la~ haha!

went to a pub next. o.o and i went in unwittingly! nevermind. pub what, small, tiny and all. but i didn't drink la. except that Jack came over A LOT of times, wanted us to drink the beer. -.- made me perspire a lot. sheesh. bused home and bathed and POP! haha. :D

fun-filled dinner la. hees.

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Pictures! :D

laughs, Wei De was shocked that we actually got him a belated birthday present. haha, happy belated birthday, Wei De! :D




laughs, the three of us have totally different reactions towards all these food manz. read it from our faces. haha!

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Yay I'm Fine! :D

Current Location: Home, Study Room.
Current Music: Fall - Ina.

yesterday's a real busy day! ohmygoodness. first i had my driving lesson, my first driving lesson! and next's my medical appointment for my thyroid. and lastly, it's the Annual Company Dinner with Torpedo at Carousel. haha.

driving first!
hees, mommy brought me over! haha, i love the way how mommy will sacrifice herself for us. haha, i love my mommy! :D haha, reached Ubi from Ang Mo Kio in less than 30 minutes. haha, first driving lesson with Uncle Gordon!! haha!

aiights, he's one really funny character. haha, said loads of funny things. and i screamed 3 times! plus my car stalled for 3 times too. hees, so meaning everytime i stalled, i'd scream before that. haha! it's so scary! first was when the car started to move, thn there's car beside. i almost knocked it!! goddd. thn next when was i started going a distance, thn Uncle Gordon asked me to step on the clutch pedal, which i mixed up with the brake and !!! haha! i almost knocked into the car infront again! sheesh. third time is when we're going back, Uncle Gordon asked me to let the car go first, ok i let. thn i release my clutch pedal which i'm no supposed to. and the car jerked hard. SHEESH.

on the whole it's so damn scary that i can't wait to go look for mommy. haha! back to the coffee shop, we talked alot mann! haha, and the bus ride too. thn back at AMK Hub, i rushed up to Mini Toons for my gummy candies! haha! to which action mommy said i resembled a kid. haha! and mommy paid for my candies! love her loads.

haha, next's the medical checkup. everything's fine!! haha. heng ar, nothing wrong. if not i'll definitely lose all appetide to eat ltr. haha! but when the doctor's checking, there's 3 trainee doctors. lol, thn i was like abit. "urm, don't want them to be around," like tht. haha. but bo bian, they were there to learn. so i'll have to be the experiment. *pouts*

haha, but it's a good thing that i'm alright. haha! no worries in the future liaoz. :D aiights, that's all for this entry.

blog about the dinner ltr, when i've got the pictures from rachel. haha! :D

adios, people. (:

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Sunday's Coaching.

Current Location: RP, E54F.
Current Music: 河濱公園 - S.H.E.

lesson ended damn early today! if you think that it's the time now, thn you're so so wrong. cos lesson ended at 12.30pm today. hahahahah! damn early right?! and moreover, the faci treated us to pizza! Sarpino's Pizzeria. haha, some name i've never heard before la, but it's really nice! haha. so i finished my RJ and handed up liao. woots, so i'll be so so free when i get back home from my trainings. hees.

coaching and lifesaving yesterday. haha, but i'm not too tired la. maybe cos i slept at 9pm plus on saturday night. haha, too tired la that day. and i woke up at 1am plus! i was stunned. cos that was the time i'd normally go to bed. haha. slept through the night finally and finally woke up at 7am.

coaching was fine and all, just that it started raining during the last lesson. and bo bian, the Koala Bears would have to get up. haha, abit sianns la. but nevertheless, Rachel and i went for our bath. nice and cooling mannz. haha.

slacked all the way till it's time for the afternoon coaching. while slacking i got to know this lil girl named Ameerah. (i think) she's really cute! and smart too. haha, she kept following me too la. in a cute and funny way. haha.

first hour, helped Huihui's student; Rain. she used to be my student. forgot for what reason she was transferred out. but i did remember that she's one girl who's always quiet. sheesh, so quiet that when someone bullies her, she'll still keep quiet de lehh. so i taught her lur. but can see that she improved alot la. (: good thing. haha.

second hour, and Andy's here! lol! he's with Zhi Wang and me. so three of us helped coach the nine students. haha, and Andy kept keeping Emmual to himself! lol, maybe cos he's really cute la. haha, love Emmual totally la! he's so so so so cute! haha!

next was the lifesaving lesson. Marcus asked alot of qns! and there's one thing he said to Andy. "well you looked like a clown, your hair." and i was like, "!!! ohmygodd!!" haha! lesson carried on fine. hees, taught skulling, egg-beater. and glad to say that the time's well-spent. haha.

dinner on Wed. and i'm still not sure if i should wear that dress anot. lol.

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Last Friday.

Current Location: Home, Dinning Table.
Current Music: Channel 5's Broadcasting Beijing Olympics.

haha, well this is the first time i find myself anticipating the Olympics. haha. four years back .. i'm 15 years old, totally have no contact with any sports. of course i'll find no interest in the Olympics. and now four years later that i'm 18 to 19 years old, i'm in contact with swimming. so naturally i'll find myself waiting, anticipating the Olympics. haha, and maybe the modules i've studied recently, the sports modules were all regarding the Olympics. maybe that's one of the reason why so ba. haha.

class ended damn early today! haha! it ended before 3.00pm! haha, did my part way before the second meeting and uploaded it. haha, guess everybody's feeling sianns today cos' it's the last lesson. haha, so Dei didn't do that much either. and when i'm back, the ppt's done more or less. haha.

Dave came over and take a look and said,"good, you guys beat the 6P," haha! yes! lol! and after that we ended lessons. guess where were we going? we're going to CWP together and Dave's going to give us all a treat at Breeks! haha. there's 7 of us and all of us fitted nicely into his car, a seven-seater. hahaha.

lunch was great! with Dei, Sabrina, Cheer, Suat Ting and Azim. haha. i ordered this Seafood Baked Rice. haha, not bad. except that i don't like the mussels. haha, and Cheer's funny la! cos she couldn't finish her food. so she's asking if Dei will be angry at her for wasting food anot. we were thinking why not Dave but Dei since Dave's the one treating us.

lol, because Dei said before not to waste food because there's people out there in the world starving. haha! cute right she! haha.

after the heavy lunch and some chats, Dave gave me a ride to Sun Plaza cos he lived in Sembawang and i'm going over to get my contact lens. haha. THANKS LOADS DAVE!

haha, the name reminded me of the guy in the Chipmunks. haha!

two more modules to the end of this semester. sheesh, time passes real quick!

adios! :D

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Another Basketball Session Soon?

Current Location: RP, E54F.
Current Music: 愛我的資格 - S.H.E.

i'm so darn boredddd. class ended so darn earlyyyyy. sheesh, 3pm lehh. and what had i been doing today? slackkkkkkking. sheesh, it's so boring la can. and it's not even 3.45pm that the faci left already. even more sianns. what's more, i'm having UT later. super mega sianns ar! eeek.

meeting Eils and Nerin later at Bugis. supposed to buy my dress. haha. dress, ohmygodd. i can't believe i'm going to wear a dress. sheesh. next wed, company dinner. next wed, medical checkup. next wed, first driving practical lesson.

actually the one i'm more worried about is my checkup. sighhs, hope nothing wrong. hope everything's going to be just fine. hees. jiayous, yvonne goh! nothing's going to go haywire de! wahahah!

i don't wanna go for the UT! sianns! but i've missed one already. cannot miss another one. sianns! i see if i know how to do anot. if i don't, i'll just click on the "End Test" button and shooo. haha.

hmm, feel like shooting hoops and playing basketball suddenly. recalled the times when i had basketball with BS. fun la. haha, though he kept making me have a feeling that i'm a monkey. dang. but basketball sessions with him were fun. haha, hope to play basketball again soon. haha. (:

adios.

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Saturdayyyyy.

Current Location: Fairway Country Club.
Current Music: Belief - S.H.E.

well the time now is 12.58pm on my notebook. and why am i doing here instead of going back to have my usual nap and rest? sighhs. cos i'm have to stay back to help out with the teaching of lifesaving. ): and it's starting at 6.00pm! arghhs, and it's always at a time like this that i'd always wish that i actually lived nearby and able to go back and rest. ): until 7.30pm mannz! i'll have to wait until 7.30pm before i can end the coaching for the day and go back to have my rest! bleahh. doubt i'll be going to school tmr. haha! aiights, it's a might kays! don't kill me BGF. (:

coaching on these two days were funn. haha. let's talk about saturday first. (:

first hour, all of 'em turned up except for Yi Han! sighhs, hope he'll turn up next week. lol. lessons were fine and all, and they had proceeded to using the board only liao. haha. second hour, even better! well, remember that they were actually the best class i had? haha, and it's for real! they can swim without noodles and board liao. wow, i felt that i really had taught them something leh. haha. and i introduced them treading water. (: and they can do it! haha, yes yes. pleased i am. hees.

third hour. ): kimberly started off with a statement which made me felt ): ): ): *sobbs* a lil conver between us.

"teacher where are you? i can't see you lehh!"
"what cannot see me? i'm here right?"
"but you so black! how can i see you properly??"

WAH. I'M (!!!) LA. haha, and with a lil exclamation, i replied.

"WHAT BLACK?" i said swimming over, lol. "i'm only A LITTLE tanner, only A LITTLE."

sheesh. i was like, ohmytiann la. cos earlier yesterday, Kgang went for their normal morning exercises again. and the sun is OHMYGODD de SUNNY mannz. Jas and I were like, "woah, i don't wanna get any tanner!" and hey! i ran for 6 rounds kays! hees, ran for 3 rounds the week before and 6 rounds this week! if there's still a next week, i hope to attain 6 laps, without stopping to walk and all.

lol, i heard a father told his boys yesterday when they said that they were tired. "Don't listen to your body, listen to your mind instead!" cool right? haha, i practically sprinted when i heard wha the dad said. but i lasted for only half a lap that i actually STOPPED. my energy just plummeted. lollollol.

thn we did the statics and the one that needed us to lift up our legs and down de. haha, i couldn't do it AT ALL last week. but this week i did it aiights? haha! i felt a great sense of achievement lur. wheee. and after that coaching lur. hees.

after coaching, headed towards Plaza Singapura for my family's there. and we're about to watch "Money Not Enough 2"!! haha! i'm tellin' you, the movie's fantastically great, superbly nice and damn damn damn touching ( i ran out of vocab for this touching term, lol).

i laughed like hell, i cried like hell. haha, that's a movie this nice. lol. the mom's acting damn greatttt mannz. I LOVE HER! all of us, daddy mommy eils sean kris sis nerin elaine joelin and me, sat one whole stretch. haha. and there's one guy infront of us who laughed damn exaggerating de. haha! made us laughed like hell. haha.

back home, i'm dead beat mannz. exercise first, coaching next, movie last. wahhh. i fell asleep straight when i fell on my bedd. haha!

when, coaching for today. hmm, shall blog about it another day le ba. don't feel like blogging and typing anymore. haha!

adios for nowwwz.

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