Nobody cares.

Current Location: Home.
Current Music: 傻瓜 - 溫嵐.

i dont know how much longer can i hold on. it's like, i'm the only one who's concern about this whole thing. why cant you two too be concern? i dont know if i'm at fault too. but i guess i was. i shouldnt have hollered at him. but one thing i'm sure.

i'm a lifesaver, not a lifebuoy. i'm not someone whom you peeps thought will always be there whenever you peeps need me. and when you all dont, discard me away. i dont like tht feeling. i dont like the feeling of being betrayed.

yes you may say tht i'm being petty by remembering what happened when we were young and all. but i'm sorry, i jst couldnt forget it. it had been marked onto me like a terrifying memory. you two might not know it, but it's really painful for me to remember as much as i want to forget.

had plans out for tmr and sunday. plans to be alone without them.

hadnt talked to them for more than 24 hours. and i dont miss it at all.

PS. I LOVE YOU.

Current Location: Home.
Current Music: 傻瓜 - 溫嵐.

i was reading PS I LOVE YOU when i decided to stop and blog this entry. reading jst the note tht Gerry gave Holly was enough to bring tears to my eyes and had it rolling down like a river. and to think Yongkai and Weisi said tht the show was only okay?! i bet they dont understand the whole story. LOL.

here's what Gerry said to Holly,

My darling Holly,
I don't know where you are or when exactly you are reading this. I just
hope that my letter had found you safe and healthy. You whispered to me not long
ago that you couldn't go on alone. You can, Holly.

You are strong and brave and you can get through this. We shared some
beautiful times together and you made my life... you made my life. I have no
regrets.

But I am just a chapter in your life - there will be many more.
Remember our wonderful memories, but please don't be afraid to make some
more.

Thank you for doing me the honour of being my wife. For everything, I
am eternally grateful.

Whenever you need me, know that I am with you.

Love for ever,
Your husband and best friend,
Gerry.

PS. I promised a list, so here it is. The following envelope must be
opened exactly when labelled and must be obeyed. And
remember, I'm looking out for you, so I will know...

touching isnt it!! ohmygod. nxt were a pile of notes, each reminding her to do stuffs tht she would everytime forget to do and he would do for her.

the first one was, "Save yourself the bruises and buy a bedside lamp! PS. I love you..."

she literally burst from tears to laughter when she saw his first note! it's like as if he's back together with her again.

there're many different form of love. be it your partner her with you every minute, every second. be it, you two were separated in two different land now. remember the love you two have. it's so so hard to come by where you can find someone you love and who loves you as well. (: cherish it, my dear friends. (:

wanna go watch this movie. hahas! but i'm not gng alone. bleah. LOL.

Updates, Once Again! :D

Current Location: Home.
Current Music: 傻瓜 - 溫嵐.

okay, i've set my heart to update now. lol.

.Rens Birthday Bash.
it's a blast! hahas. aiights, not blash totally, but we had fun. hahas! instead of ice-skating, we went to play pool instead. hahas, and my team, which consists of Rens herself, Loo, Lins and Me, lost all 3 rounds. pengs. hahas!

#1. Pool at Jurong East.
#2. Ice Cream at Holland V.
#3. Dinner and Chit-Chats at a Food Court.

dont think tht it's only 3 activities here. but hey, we spent the whole day at these 3 places leh. hahas. (:

nxt we went ahead to pass her the present we completed for her. a calender we made on our own!! whee. hahas, i'm in-charge of Sept and Nov. hahas.

Rens damn funny. she was flipping through and guessing along the way who did which. and when she flipped, she accidentally saw what Tzee did. (for those who dont know, Tzee has excellent artistic feel, can draw damn nice nice ones. hahas!)

and know what Rens said? "woah, nxt one i dont dare to flip. too pretty liao."

hahas! imagine us! we were all, "woah! you good lor! keep Tzee's ones la. ours we take back." LOL! chatted loads and all. hahas.

had loads loads of fun with them. it's been a long long time where we get to gather together to chat and all. i love you girls! :D

.Coaching.
Rachel had her assessment tht day. i think she did it well ba. hahas. coaching was damn funn when you get to know the kids better. (: and they rmbred me! i'm so glad. hahas! they're still as fun as ever.

esp the last class. now i call them the "koala bear" class! ohmy ohmy. last class they clinged onto Zhiwang like a tree, i didnt say anything. cos it's not on me ma. this time. ohmygod.

i asked for one to swim over to me. instead, all 4 jumped onto me. 1 was with Rachel. but upon seeing his (Junkai) mates jumped onto me, he swam over and pounced on me! ohmygod. i was far from the side you see. and when they wanna swim back. they kick off from me. -.-

lol, all sides of me kena kicked mann! my tummy, my legs. lucky they didnt kick the where ar. if not no mother's day for me liao. LOL.

but they're still cute la! hahas! :D loving every sunday! :D

had training today. but got gastric. arghs. i should have ate more than jst merely 2 slices of bread. bleah to Vonns Goh. ):

started reading PS I LOVE YOU. hope it's really nice! :D

Too Tired to Update.

Current Location: Home.
Current Music: Rain Flows in You - Yiruma.

eils currently playing this music. which is so so gentle tht made me really wanna doze off already. but alas. i'll still try to blog out the events which happened ytd and today. (:

(arghs, i'm quite pissed off with BitComet now. the download rates for both 鬥牛and惡作劇 are like. what the hell. arghs.)

ohmy ohmy. i totally got no energy to recall back on things ytd, to blog them out with elation (is there even such a word?).

nxt updates when i'm free. tmr's gonna be another busy day agn. arghs. i wanna sleep in!! x(

便裝天使 Done Uploading! :D

Current Location: Home.
Current Music: 卓文宣 - 小脾氣.

http://www.ttv.com.tw/member/ttvNetDrama/Drama.asp?DID=5217

whee!! i finally finished posting my story online!! wahahahahas!! it's hard work to decide where to stop where not to stop. where to let the readers wanting to continue reading and all. hahas. but, here it is! finally done.

hahas, hope you peeps would have the time to read it. but. hmm. upon thinking, who sia?

some of you, upon seeing so many chinese words will wanna shun liao. some of you, would be busy working, no time to even read so many episodes.

bleah. hahas! nvm. got other readers also. however, if you peeps happen to be free, go ahead and read kays??

loves! :D

and if you happen to read or what, give me some comments horx. hahas! thankie! :D

Blank.

Current Location: Home.
Current Music: 棒棒堂 & 黑澀會美媚 - 苦茶.

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had wanted to blog some thinkings and all. but when i looked at this page, my mind jst went blank.

things happened and it threw me back to the spot where i was previously. i've jst been taken for a ride, by my own imaginations again.

feel so tired suddenly. tired of wearing such a heavy armour all day long. i guess, it's time to be back to being who yvonne really is. not tht da nu ren anymore. not anymore..

鬥牛. 要不要!!

Current Location: RP; Library.
Current Music: Tzee's laughter while watching Dou Niu. :D

hahas! we were supposed to do something for Rens. (lol, i doubt she will even look here and tadaa~) and guess what we're doing now?

she's watching Dou Niu Yao Bu Yao!! :D

i'm tellin' you. this epi (14) is damn damn nice!! it's so sweet la. it's a recognition for Yi Sheng Xue and Shen Ruo He. and also some sweet sweet parts which only couples will do. hees.

peg told me ytd about one part which made me HIGH all the way. when i was downloading dou niu, when i was msn-ing. lol,

she said, when Sheng Xue sang "Ai Lai Guo", Ruo He hugged her from the back. ohmygod!!! i totally love this kinda scenes la! i was imagining all the way and while thinking, i was high-ing la!

cor asked why i so high. lol, and i told her ma. hahas, i also told her tht, i feel, hugs can explain everything. (: in which she agree to. hees.

hugging from the back.. hahas! :D

Coaching, &updates. :D

Current Location: Home.
Current Music: S.H.E. - 戀人未滿.

i'm so darn tired!! arghs.

Sunday.
went coaching early in the morning at Zhiwang's place. he intro me and jess in. aiights, first time being a coach, inevitable to feel nervous and all. but i did mange to feel fine. hahas.

i was attached to Zhiwang. and so we had lessons, starting at 9am. Zhiwang has 3 classes. all of lil kids! they were all very very cute la! the ages of the kids got smaller and smaller. hahas! the first class average age should be around pri 2, pri 3 like tht. except for one lil fella. his name was Jovis (i think). he's so damn small size! and he only 3 years old. (:

know what? he kept clinging onto Zhiwang la! lol, he dont really dared to swim on his own without his float and all. and he dont really trusted me. ): he cant seem to swim properly, and Zhiwang was behind, coaching the other kids. so, i held out my hand to give him support. he rised out his hand, and in nxt second, he withdrew it back agn. LOL. aiights, this kinda things cannot rush de. hahas.

nxt class, i think it's the funniest class la! for i laughed really out loud. hahas! Zhiwang and i created this "Pot", which Zhiwang wanted them to jump in. LOL, and this cute lil fella, guess what he did? instead of jumping into the pot, he jumped onto Zhiwang instead! ohmygod! i guess Wang could sense him wanting to jump onto him and was like saying, "no no no, into the pot!" hahas! but still, he jumped onto Zhiwang instead. hahas! cute lil fella, isnt he? hees.

the last class, there was a pair of twins! identical twins. named, Junkai and Junxiang. hahas, having them for lessons for soooooooo long, Zhiwang still couldnt differentiate them out. only by their goggles. Junkai had blue goggles and Junxiang had grey goggles. hahas! cos Wang couldnt come nxt week, he wanted me to rmbr tht lil Alvis (i think, again) was afraid of water. hahas, she's one cute lil girl! unlike jovis, she held onto my hands all the time when we were playing this boat thingy. hahas! and another lil girl of the same class, Jasmine, skidded right into me when playing. hahas, this class has the youngest children. and hmm. they seems to trust me la. hahas! happy happy! :D

coaching's real real fun! wheee!!

went to Daddy's fren place next and to Big Aunt's place. i was so worn-out! ohmy ohmy. i practically slept on the rides. under the sun for 3 hours. imagine tht. hahas.

and Vonn's guilty for one thingy: She dropped XH's flowers.

aiights, i accidentally bumped into her flowers and they dropped. gosh, 2 petals dropped out! i was so stunned la. though she wasnt angry with me and still joked with me and all, i still felt guilty. ):

nxt was the talking session with XH and Eils. hahas, we're always able to talk about relationship problems with each other. and i like this feeling. hahas!

i talked to her regarding *u*. hmm, she told me how she felt and all. but, there's still this feeling of insecureness within me. sighhs.

whatever it is la huh. training ltr. jiayous!

Updates!

Current Location: Home.
Current Music: S.H.E. - 最近還好嗎.

happy belated valentines day!! hahas, had fun for those attached? i do hope so! hahas. (: well, i can say tht i did receive flowers and chocs for this valentines. lol, chocs from CorGf, and flowers from LooGf and Uncle Paul. thankie people! :D

(hahas, Uncle Paul came to visit my parents, and feel tht should buy some flowers for it's Valentines' Day. so~)

and my thumb's still hurting like hell!! bullshit! i cant even exert force on and from it lor! and if you can see now, i'm typing real damn slooooooowwwww. it's so darn painful! it's my left thumb, you see. and i cant even write into my scheduler la. *pouts*

i think i sorta sprained it.shouldnt have bent it too much to make those "cliak cliak" sound. sighhs. have to ask daddy to bring me to the physician alr. grr.

one last thing to update( my thumb really CMI le.):
i've been having weird weird dreams lately! for the past few days in this week. wo de tian. i would be having dreams mixed with reality. made me woke up in the middle of the night, leaving me baffled. and normally, i will wake up at 5plus like tht. ytd night even worst. i woke up at 2plus! not even 3!

dreamt of Loo having a bf. (must be the last phone call from her before i slept) and dreamt i go back to Unity to study as a repeat student. (and this the incident eils and i talked about in our beds). i even scolded the juniors leh! one thing was because they were really atrocious. but me? i really scolded them till they shut up la. woah, the me inside my dream sorta scare me. phews.

aiights, here it is. adios. (:

Blur Blur CorGf! // Officially Over. :D

Current Location: Home.
Current Music: Fly Away.

whee!! vonns succeeded in tricking cor gf!! LOL. she's really blur blur de. cannot help. hahas! you see, i've got her a birthday present. it was a belated one la. since last oct. (gosh, i was so embarassed while typing this out.. anyway~) hahas, she liked this wedding album ma. so i bought it for her lor.

Trick 1.

Von: Cor, you bought the wedding album already?
Cor: nope leh. Why?
Von: Orh, no la. Cos my fren asked if i got the songs ma. She say nice. (:
Cor: Orh, hahas. See, i've got good taste de hor~
Von: -.-

hahas! she jst ansed my qns jst like tht. hahas! guess she didnt notice anything strange ba. LOL. and today. jst today! i've decided to carry out my plan. muahahahas~!!

Trick 2.

Von: Cor, you tmr free ryte?
Cor: Yea, why? Wanna ask me out ar?
Von: No la, jst tht i wanna pass you something.
Cor: What thing?
Von: Orh, nothing la. Jst a letter from RP. Your name TSK ryte? RP only got 2 TSK ma. And one already graduate liao. So left you lor. Somemore add is "Sembawang".
Cor: HUH? WHAT LETTER?
Von: I dont know leh. Tmr i pass to you lor.

LOL, she fell for it totally! she kept asking me to open the letter and tell her the contents. but i told her my principle stopped me. Never to open another person's letter with or without their consent. LOL. what principle. hahas!

nxt she asked the address and all. hahas, i almost chuang bang la! longfei dont know her actual add, boshen also dont know. two idiots. so i jst lied to her saying mommy nagging le, gtg. hahas, but i jst appeared offline. hahas!

and this morning, i met up with longfei and ask him which block she stayed in. i didnt ask him to bring me there. cos like no sincerity. hahas, and end up? i walked a lonng lonng way. pengs. there was a shortcut lor! lol, on the way, i was like saying, "cor say her house very fast reach de. stupid girl, what a long way lor!" and ended up, there was actually a shortcut!! pengs!

nxt we went up to her level. 12th floor. longfei was like dont know is 10th or 12th. luckily he's right ar. hahas! thn i called her and waited, 15 mins shuew~ past. she still not out. thus, i used my investigator skills and found out exactly which apartment. hahas! cos got alot of female shoes ma, and i saw cor's shoes also. LOL.

jst as i pressed the doorbell, she came out! same time. hahas! and she gave me a block of chocs la! for valentines. hahas! thanks gf! :D loves!

hahas, we talked for a long time. and she even blame me tht she dreamt of kaka lor. lol, if you dreamt of the faci, you can blame me la. but kakas?? haiyo~ hahas!

had loads of fun talking to her and longfei. (: but what i had wanted to tell her still haven. ):

nvm~ i'll still have a chance de. hahas. (: nxt went to training and to my baby cousin's place! he's still as cute, and training's still as tough. sheesh. hahas.

P.S.
got a cramp today. right leg. sheesh~ i dropped my brick. and jin still thought i was trying to pick it up. hahas, until i was there a long long time, thn she realised and towed me back. once back there, yikai did the same thing as he did in NUS Mass Swim. he didnt asked like the last time and helped me ease the pain. this time round, no feelings. (: really like a brother. hahas, guess i really got over him officially le. whee!! love today!! :D

CNY!! :D

Current Location: Home.
Current Music: 飛輪海 - 不會愛.

i'm so damn tired!! whoosh.

New Year Eve.
had breakfast with Rens and Loo. hahas, Loo was late, as per usual. hahas! went back home, did the housework and all. phew, spell out tidy! hahas! and of course, mom nagged again. she does it everytime we clean our house. sighhs. hahas.

went to Granny's house for the reunion dinner at all. hahas, and i watch The X Family. whee!! and i saw Ya Lun!! wo de tian. he's still as shuai as ever~~ hahas! next~

oh yea. went to watch Ah Long Pte Ltd with my cousins and nieces. LOL. it's damn hilarious! hilarious it is, but. hmm. i feel tht the plot is still okay~ la. hahas.

had wanted to sleep later de. got tradition ma. but dad and mom shoo-ed us to bed after giving us our angbaos. we were tired too la. okay me. cos i woke up early mann~ 7am plus leh. hahas.

P.S. made someone angry tht day. im aint sure if this person is really angry. but it's the feeling i had so la. siannsation.

First Day of CNY.
dont wanna wake up at all! hahas. eils and i totally dont wanna wake up la. lol. went to offer incense to Grandpa and next proceeded to Granny's place. hahas. ate the vegetarian dishes Granny cooked. it's still as delicious as ever! hahas!

next was the angbaos giving session. lol. we played Dai Dee. hahas! i knew how to play thanks to Viwawa sia. lol, thn played Ban Luck. hahas, our usual game every new year. and guess what. i lost every cent i had. ohmygod la! my luck really CMI lor. people say if you lack luck in gamling, means you're gaining luck in love. hahas. i hope so! :D

slept for hours with eils. hahas. when we woke up, it's like 4pm plus nia. however, cousin jiajun was already there. ohmygod. (erm, he's daddy's cousin la. jst like benjamin. our RP advisor. but he's so so young la! around my age de. hahas.) well, he's the cousin i had a crush on since i was in sec 2. a crush, note the word. but, we didnt exchange words. sighhs. dont know what to talk to him sia. and i jst woke up, sure look very blur de. ): but, it's okay~ cos i'll still get to see him on the 2nd day. hahas!

went back home with daddy and eils. to bathe and all. then went back. met up with my fellow cousins. had wanted to play pool. hahas, well we did in the end. however, we still got chased out cos kelly forgot her pass. and she dont looked like 16 (but she did la). so~

my cousins were all pissed off la. cos the girl jst checked our table. bleah.

Second Day of CNY.
went to Big Aunt's place in the afternoon and Er Jiu Gong's place at night. where i can see cousin jiajun agn. hahas! he's aint exceptionally shuai la. but boy-next-door look lor. teehees.

and Benjamin came. LOL. as soon as he came in i was like wahhahas! thn he said, "laugh what laugh la you," hahas! thn when he gave the angbao, he was like, "aiyah~ you dont need to give de la you~!" hahas! and know what he said? he told xiaoling biao gu i gave him trouble at RP lor. yuan wang ar! hahas! he's the one who everytime kajiao lor. LOL. tht time say we swim jiu hao, no need to play bb de. LOL. and when i go off liao, he gave me a thumb up sign, asking me to jiayou in RP. hahas!

wheee!! hahas!

today third day~ okay la. jst more bai nian-ing. hahas. and throughout the weeks. pengs.

adios, people~!

hahas!

Worn Out.

Current Location: Home.
Current Music: 飛輪海 - 至少還有我.

Sunday.
K-ing with my beloved Kgang!! hahas. we went to Top One in Bugis. it's really worth it leh. 20 bucks for 5 hours?! hmm, 12pm to 7pm. EVEN MORE THAN THT! lol. and free flow of drinks lor. with pearls somemore!! teehees. it's really high class there la! hahas, nxt time can go there agn! and with the LS peeps. and cor too! dont think you can get away ar! hahas!

also, we saw Jay Chou. hahas. he's there for the Kungfu Basketball meet-the-fans session. we actually thought it was fake de leh. i mean, maybe not Jay will be there la. but he was there! though we see him from afar, can see his seh is shuai de lor~!!

and mommy bought bak gua. hahas! my favourite. LOL. (calories)

Monday.
start of the hols!! whee!! hahas. daddy tried to wake me up early again. typical of dad. hahas. medical checkup. so sianns. we were late for 15 mins. but the hospital was even later. by an hour. made me late for my training!! hmph.

and the doc very funny. he was scanning scanning scanning. it's almost done le leh, serious. and suddenly he goes, "OH!" i thought he discovered what leh. made me worried, thn he said, "sorry, had to start all over le. i accidentally deleted it. sorry." -.- pengs. and this made me even later thn i already was for my training. hais.

training; brick tow. kns. i really suck at it leh!! my hand (right) can almost deem as useless le lor. bleah. tired ar. and the towing of the manikin. sia la. i really need to train my arm liao.

and i almost stopped breathing. ohmygod. after my second lap of the interval swimming.

i was gasping for air la!! suddenly couldnt breath at all. gasping and gasping. sudden lack of oxygen, and my head was splitting like hell. chris soothes my back to help me circulate my breathing. by telling me to breath in and out. woah, thanks girl. i took a long time to circulate back la. but at least i did. (:

nxt was the sprinting. i did badly badly badly. sighs. sprinted, and i got 26 secs? pengs. the limit was 25 secs. i dont wanna drag my team la. so i'll try real hard. (: and thankie, zhiwang!! for teaching me how to spring faster. (:

also, advance happy birthday to zhiwang!! hahas. had fun la. another highlight of the day: longfei's new haircut. really look like an egg leh!! hahas!! we then went to have dinner at McDonalds. marvin, 你给我记住. (grr)

P.S. BIG BIG THANKIE TO PEG AND YIKAI! (: they got me this lil container, inside with medicine. panadol for headache, panadol for menstrual cramps, and panadol for gastric. 'cause i have fequent headaches. and whenever it's tht period of the month, i'll cramp real bad tht i need the med and normally i dont have them and thus will needa bear with the pain to go and buy. gastric is occasionally. after trainings. :D thankie!! loves! (:

tht's all folks! (:

Lesson Learnt?

Current Location: Home.
Current Music: S.H.E. - 最近還好嗎.

she's feeling moodless. moodless to do anything. moodless to think about anything. she repeated her mistake again. couldnt she learn her lesson at all? how many times were you taught that it couldnt be trust? how many times were you hurt in the process of getting it? when will you ever learn?

siannsation thoughout these days. the times when she laughed? she's only trying to pull it off. laughed so hard at the dinner table jst now tht she could actually felt tears. were they really tears of reminising the childhood? or were they jst tears? reminising childhood? blah, an excuse for her tears to drop freely.

she learnt her lesson now. for she knew, at this point of time, there wouldnt be someone new barging in again. 'cause it's the hols. she can recuperate on her own now. without the help of relieving one pain from another. this time round, she's almost 100% certain she will learn. learn not to trust it over and over again. stupidly.

her regret in life? she shouldnt have joined lifesaving.

but.

it's because of lifesaving that she learnt so much. it's because of lifesaving she get to know so many good frens. aiights, joining lifesaving shant be the regret that started all these. it's her. her mind who has been thinking so much.

down to the root. she should have skipped the trip to mac tht time. else..

Last Day of Year 1.

Current Location: Home.
Current Music: S.H.E. - 最近還好嗎.



jst woke up from the nap i had this afternoon. tired, damn deadbeat from this lifeguard job i had as a volunteer for the Avontuur Race. it seems fun though, maybe can join next year with peg. (:

ytd was the last day of school for my first year. and when sch reopens, i'll be in Year 2. bleah. suddenly like so old like tht. and my beloved Year 3s now, graduated. sianns. hope yikai and jess will still come back for trainings. (: