Open Water Competitions

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: -

jst was the Open Water Competitions at Siloso Beach. (:
all our participants did well! very well! hahas. of course,
we've trained alot during our trainings and gave our best
at the competitions. wheee!

hahas. but the organisations abit dont-know-how-to-say.
only after the first even, Beach Sprint, loads of problems
corked up.

ended up some of the events kena cancelled la.Beach Flag
was almost cancelled. luckily it didnt ar. kai trained so hard
for it. it jst got pushed to the last event. (:

loads of look outs for kelvin chen. hahas. thanks to peg, now
i got a new idol. hahas. kelvin chen's really a good swimmer.
hahas. and not to mention that he's quite good-looking too.
hahas. we kept taking shots of him lor. and i think he knew
it la. cause he kept shunning the camera. hahas!

weather was really hot there. and the admins were like, taking
such a damn long time to settle everything. so peg and i went
to grab one ice-cream of our own. laughs, she got this choc
cornetto and i got this lime ice-cream. (: one of my favourites.

hahas. loads of pictures here and there. loads of sunburns
here and there too. hahas. jenny's mom was here ytd. wonder
if my folks will come down too nxt year. hahas!

zhiwang joined us afterwards. to bring us our meals. laughs.
i wanted to take one pic with him also cannot immediately take.
what, must give him one good reason.

lol, it's embarrassing enough for me to say wanna take pictures
with him le lei. instead of getting it over with quickly, he kept asking
me to come up with a reason. i say he handsome also cannot. i say
he nice also cannot. thn he finally agree after much fussing. lol. dont
know why he like to disturb me so much. thought tht he dont like me
in the first place. but not lei. hmm.

the events carried on smoothly after tht. thn it was around this point
of time when the sun sets. (: it's so damn pretty! (: i then ushered
chris and gek thiam to take a pic. it's really really breath-taking. i too
wanted to take a pic with him. but better not. (:

things were gng on quite well. but we're really damn tired. i slept at
1am plus 2am the night before. woke up late la. at round 6.05am.
dots. supposingly reach there at 7.00am. but we reached at 7.25am
instead. hahas.

went home with peg without having our dinner. cause it's quite late
alr. mom was worried. on my way home. i found seats everytime la,
yea! thn i can sleep. hahas. im tht tired. almost miss my stops. starting
thinking nonsense. hahas.

Well Done, RP Lifesaving Team! (: Cheerios! (:

K-Ing Session // Laopos Meet-up (:

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: S.H.E. – 老婆

wheee! today's fun fun fun! hahas. NO SCHOOL. of course. laughs,
ponned ma. i was so shocked mann. i didnt pon a single lesson for
STFM's class lei! hahas. so i decided to give this last lesson a skip.

hahas! and i went for k-ing session with W16M girls. (: namely, me,
suyin, xuanwen, kristen, and sijie. ah boon, aka, kristen's brother,
sijie bf-to-be (hahas!!) was here too. (: ah lian aka jocc actually supposed
to come de. but she caught the flu bug. sighhs. hope she's feeling
better. take care, lian! (:

we sang the k-ing session from 2pm to 7pm de. woah, we sang
a whole loads of songs la. (: and i got praised. lol. cause of my singing
la. hahas. it feels good la. cause got praised ma. (:

they all said my voice is like so nice la, and my singing good. i was like,
huh, my voice haven really recover lei. what i meant was tht, im still sick.
they thought that i haven recover alr like tht le, recover liao thn what? hahas.
but they meant it in a funny way la. made me laugh till i cant sing. lol.

i was singing 暧昧 by Rainie Yang ma. the starting part very gentle ma.
thn suyin was like, woah, touched seh. hahas. thn when break, she ask
me why didnt i joined Project Superstar. hahas. beats me. i dont like to
compete much with people. thn xuanwen was like, nvm, if you join, we'll
put up the banners named, "AH GUI!" hahas! thanks ar, xuanwen dar.
thanks ar. lol.

tag team with suyin to sing. laughs, dont see this girl rough rough de.
whn she started singing, her voice changes TOTALLY. hahas. she sang
well de lor. (: she say she felt pressurized singing with me. laughs, thn
i tell her. dont get pressurized la cmon. jst take it as leisure singing. (:

thn i taught her the method of singing without her voice being restricted.
it really did help lor okay. im pro~ (: hahas! thn jst now on msn, she gave
me 下战书. hahas!

she say she's gonna train hard on her singing. challenge me agn. hahas.
i was like, huh? siao ar. thn she say she's serious and such. lol, typical
of laoda la. (: so i let her be lor. i say i would be waiting for her. LOL.

nxt was the meeting up with Jas Laopo and Loo Laopo. (: lol, had actually
wanna go to Holland V. the pub de. but received a forwarded msg from mom
saying tht, daddy would be online at round 9 plus. so i rushed home lor.

[in the end, dad didnt la. guess his internet still got probs. hais. missing
daddy like hell. ): ]

laughs, guess what's the coincidence part of today? the 3 of us, Jas, Loo and
I went out to Kbox today, with our Poly Friends. lol. thn we meet. Jas and i even
sang the same songs la. and we didnt sing 老婆, by S.H.E. hahas! cause this
song is especially left for my Laopos de! (: but Loo did. stupid girl. hahas!

thn we ate dinner and went home after tht. (:

HOLIDAYS~ WHEEEE~

hahas!

Wheee!

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: S.H.E. – 听袁伟人弹吉他

yvonne's a good girl today. (:
she promised xuanwen dar
tht she wont feel sad over him
agn today and be real damn
high today.

SHE DID IT! (: she actually felt
sad for him today in the afternoon
if you've read her previous entry.

cause of his nicks. but she got
over it real quick. hahas. cause
she got one whole loads of pals
waiting for her!

whees! i really love you peeps loads,
W16M! (: you people really light up
my days in a way no people ever did.

laughs. and today's good~ cause our
fave faci, jasmine soon, ordered pizza
for us. hahas.

and we ended class real early. before
330pm. laughs. cause we jst presented
our slides and jasmine didnt ask us
any qns. the class didnt either.

and we went on to this topic on time
dimensions. it's so damn interesting la!
hahas. we talked about the universe,
the bemuda triangle, the black hole and
such.

yijie la, still ask stupid qns also. walao.
made the whole class laugh till peng ar.
hahas. but the topic is so damn damn
interesting! (:

im so gonna miss this class. ):
arghs! i dont wanna change class
la! stupid RP! *BLEAHS*

ROARS!

Damn You! Yvonne Goh!

Current Location: RP; W16M.

Current Music: S.H.E. – Belief

what the hell is he trying to do?
i thought he has been keeping a
low profile de?

he jst put it up there in his nick tht
he loves her.

c'mon la vonn!
wake up! he doesnt
even knows tht you exists!

jst focus on your studies,
your family, your laopos,
darlings and frens!

and most importantly your
dream? didnt you once almost
give it up because of him?

no way! you shouldnt even do tht!
he dont and wont appreciate it. so
jst carry on with your dreams eh!

wheee!
there're loads of people to brighten
up your day! hahahahas!

Keeping Myself Distracted.

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: S.H.E. – 说你爱我

aiights, im gonna start work real soon i guess. (:
at taka, selling shoes. yes yvonne, yes. (:

im taking up JunGuang's method; making myself
as busy as i can. distracting myself from all possible
thoughts.

LS trainings will keep me busy on Mondays and
Wednesdays. tht's for sure. whereas for the extra
trainings, i'll do my best to have the least interactions
with him possible.

and i'll start work soon. thus, i'll have the extra trainings
on alternate weeks. on thursdays and fridays. most
probably on fridays ba. since there's land training.

in this way, i can cut down on the interactions i'll have
with him and the feelings would be able to go down,
i hope.

keeping myself busy. working to earn money. perfect.
i need the money anyway. (: rashguard, goggles, hell
loads of birthdays. *blurrs* all these are making my
head going boom boom ba!

hahas. first thing to be done on the list,
o1. CUT DOWN ON YOUR INTERACTIONS WITH HIM.
o2. Emphasis on your work. DONT THINK SO MUCH.
o3. Carry on with your dreams. DONT LET HIM WAVER
YOUR THOUGHTS AGAIN.

(: should be about there. (:

adios. (:

Terrible Agn.

Current Location: RP; W16M.

Current Music: S.H.E. – 说你爱我

was actually feeling terrible. over him agn. (:
but thanks to darling xuanwen. hahas. dont
misunderstand. i've got loads of darlings here
in W16M. (:

thanks girl. for following me to the toilet, where
i could tear freely.
thanks girl. for giving me advices on relationship
problems.
thanks girl. for being there for me always. (:

sighhs. it's always better to say things out la.
better than keeping it within you. (:

thanks girl. (:

W16M Loved By Vonns. :D

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: 七朵花 - Dear Friend

wheee! W16M had a real fun game today! hahas. it's termed as 'comments giving'
for the whole class. laughs, and to think xuanwen sijie and i flood each other's
comment box on friendster. hahas!

let's see what my class had wrote for me. laughs!

Jocc
"ARGH~ my beloved.. even though you make me look lyk moron,
I still love you always. maucks"

Kristen
Ah gui!! Please behave or you might have to stay here forever! haha.
Though always make fun of you. But seriously think I'll miss the fun
we had. Take care girl! Dun always walk like half-dead!

XuanWen
Ah Gui, will miss u de. Ur laughter and noise. Ah Gui we will miss
u esp chinese 7th month.

Meryl
Sept baby! You're fun and nice to work with... Rubbish bin, Ji Dan
Gao... Hahas. =p

David
The Flesh. Cute, Chubby Fleshy Betty, Yours Truely David.

Sijie
W16M and LS mates, all i can say is:
鸡糕
鸡蛋糕
Rubbish bin
Idiot
Nonsense!

Yijie
Chee Tan Kau ah Chee Tan Kau, rubbish bin ah rubbish bin,
idiot ah idiot, jelly jelly long jia bus!
i won! XD

Kevin
Cute Funny Rubbish Bin

Nurul
Yvonne, I gonna muz your zin ta gan! hahas!

LeeMing
Idiot... xD

Sul
*draws one rubbish bin* Going to miss ya morning!

Jeevi
Blur, Funny, Chee Tan Kau

Vasenth
Chee Tan Kau, iiiiiidiot, Rubbish Bin. a funny gal who can
sneeze alot of time

Zhang Xiao
Learn alot from you, '鸡蛋糕' - hahas.

Shaheed
Cute, Chubby, Nonsensical and UGLY BETTY!! CHITAN KOW!!!

Max
One of the first few blur people i have met in my entire life. Be
blur till the end!

Alvin
Vonn Jie Jie, so smart!

Denver
Funny & Cute Rubbish Bin. Have fun. (:

laughs, funny ryte! hahas. if you've noticed, most of them contains
Ji Dan Gao, Rubbish Bin, Idiot. hahas, my slogans in class. made
well-known thanks to David. hahas!

and one more thing, I DONT LOOK LIKE UGLY BETTY! it's only the
specs! arghs. hahas. i shouldnt have chosen red. *pouts* hahas.

tell you what, im gonna miss this class so so badly. ): 16 weeks are
over jst like tht. sianns. rmbr the first time we stepped into this class,
knowing practically no one. and now we're as close as one big family.
nothing can keep us separated. (:

the feeling is jst like the 28 jas they all had in Unity. (: be it you're a boy
or a girl, you're part of us alr! united as one together. (: laughs. this feeling
will never get lost. it will be forever kept in my heart. forever in my memories.
being reminised by me every now and then. (:

W16M, WE MUST MUST MUST DEFINITELY MEET UP FOR LUNCHES
AND OUTING EVERY NOW AND THEN AIIGHTS! I DONT CARE IF YOU
HAVE YOUR IGS ANOT. IM READY TO GIVE MINE A SKIP ONCE IN A
WHILE JST FOR YOU GUYS. (:

see, even me willing to give up one training jst to be with you guys lei.
woah, noble seh me. hahas!

FOREVER LOVED, W16M AY07 (:
by Vonns AKA Ji Dan Gao AKA Rubbish Bin AKA Idiot. (:

Thoughts from Thinker (!!)

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: M2M – Pretty Boy

i've been thinking alot today (aiights, i know you people must have said,
which day haven i been thinking alot. LAUGHS), guess because i've been
staying at home today for the whole day. now tht's hard to come by aiights.
laughs, yvonne's a good girl. (:

did nothing much except for hogging onto my notebook. cause i thought
daddy would be online! but he wasnt. sadded. cause over there at germany
have no connection. thus 'postponed' to 8pm. nothing to do? sleep lor.

hahas! such a pig. (: but dad couldnt online on 8pm either! SIANNSATION.

cause i missed today's trg and he wont be coming for trg tmr since he's
working. but for the sake of my real daddy, so be it ba. (:

and dad CALLED back. laughs. get to talk to him. (: and both dad and mom
called me 黑妞 la! it was actually 胖妞. before i came to RP. and now it's 黑妞

cause i've slimmed down. also tht i've tanned damn loads. hahas. couldnt
help it! i've applied the sun block lotion! it's not working. darn it. laughs.

aiights. on my thinking.

WHY HAVEN MY SORE THROAT AND HOARSE VOICE RECOVER?
it's been more than 2 weeks! normally it would take around 3 to 5 days to
recover. now what? 3 to 5 weeks? cant! i miss my original voice totally!

i couldnt sing! tht's the worst!

for someone who loves singing as i do to unable to sing for 2 weeks? kill
me alr! i was thinking, from a voice of around Selina's standard to now not
even Ella's? it feels so shitty la. arghs.

mom said tht my voice couldnt recover because i've no enough rest. it thn
started me thinking, could it be? thn i thought, yea ar. i thought it was because
of my weak constitution. laughs.

LS Trainings on
Mondays Wednesdays.
Extra LS Trainings on
Thursday Fridays.

Beach LS Trainings on
Saturday.


woah, no wonder i got no time to get well la. luckily the hols are coming. (: thn
i can rest longer. though i'll still go down for LS trainings. (: BUT. i can still rest
in the day. (: sleeping in~ YES! hahas!

but the thought of changing class for the next sem jst bores me and bring me
down. arghs. can we dont change please? a hundred a thousand pleases~!

ROARS TO RP'S CHANGING CLASS EVERY SEMESTER!

*butt to you* ):

RP Biatholon 07

Current Location: Home. –Shagged-

Current Music: 马骏伟 – 想飞

RP Biathlon 2007 is officailly over by 3hrs and 52 mins according to my notebook's
timing. (: it had been a long long day. both physically and mentally tired. mentally
tired cause today's module is on computing maths (SIANNSATION). while i was
looking at the codes, i really can sleep liao ar. what, Dim r as new random, Label1.
Left. wth you talking about? really sending me to lala land liao. hahas.

forget about that maths lessons, today's main focus is not even on tht. hahas. it's
on RP Biathlon. hahas. swam 6 laps of freestyle straight, no resting. and after tht
still ran 1.5km straight away lei! woah. give me a break mann! but cant la. got timing
de. so cant lor.



i got my first body marking ever today. (: 105. hahas. and im in lane 2 for wave 5. which
is the female individual bi-lite. hahas. whn we were about to start. im so damn nervous
la. im treating this as an experience. an experience hard to come by. whn i heard the
'poop' sound, i quickly kicked off the wall for more gliding. i didnt get nervous or something.
i jst do as per usual. like my normal warmups, normal trainings.

after the first lap, i was like, hard to catch my breath alr. but i pushed myself harder. cause
i know if i stopped, my timing would be like more shitty than it would already be. hah! and
it did work! i pushed myself for the second lap. and with all these thinkings, 3rd and 4th
lap seems so much more easy. hahas. whn it was the 5th lap, i got all nervous up agn.
cause i know as soon as i reach the wall on the other end, it would be my last lap. and as
i looked over to the other side, i saw only one more girl la! i was like, dammit! hahas. thn
i hastened up my pace. as i was halfway through the 6th lap, tht girl was no where in sight
la! hahas. and as i turned my head up to breathe, i saw Azmi walking by the side asking me
to go for it. hahas! thanks dude! (:

AND THE LADY DIDNT EVEN TELL ME THT I'VE COMPLETED MY 6 LAPS LA. LUCKILY I
GOT COUNT AR.

thn i quickly got outta pool and rushed down to the transition area. took 59 seconds to change!
damn it! i shouldnt have put on the shorts. arghs. thn i quickly put on my shoes and ran towards
the running lane. as i ran down, i heard zhiwang's voice asking me to jiayou.

something like, 'go yvonne go! quick quick quick! go for it! jiayou!' hahas. something like tht. i
was shocked to hear his voice la! zhiwang lei, the zhiwang who always bicker with me lei.
hahas. i couldnt believe ma. so i turned over to check if it really was him. IT WAS. hahas. and as
i turned over, i almost slipped. lol, couldnt blame though. the floor was slippery, my shoes was
slippery. hahas. luckily there were grips for us to hold. hahas.

as i ran, i saw this girl dressed in red in front of me. it's not far la. so i decided to overtake her and
i continued running. i ran ran ran all the way through the 7-Eleven and OSC. all the way to the TRCC.
thn i turned back, i couldnt see her la! hahas. great, tht's what my mind's gng through. hahas. only
at the end of the TRCC, could i see her. however, it was also at this point of time whn my legs
couldnt take it alr. starting to cramp. i was like, 'shit! not now!' but die die cannot la. i stopped
running to massage my legs. but this red girl is coming alr! so i pressed myself further and
continue running.

a few more, i told myself. and whn i was about to reach the finishing line, i was like, where's
the place where i should stop running? thn i heard this person say, jst run past it! and the DJ
was like, 'yes, we have another female competitior going past the line! well done!' laughs. after
i passed the line, it was like, 'phew, it's over alr' hahas. thn i quickly go right up to check for peg
chris and weisi. but they werent there. i looked around la. thn i bumped into melvin.

he said i didnt ask him to jiayou, to think he jiayou-ed for me. laughs, i was like when you
said jiayou for me? he said he did, when i was swimmng, but i couldnt hear la. laughs, duhh
ryte? but i asked him to jiayou too. (: thn i saw weisi. she jst got up, i supposed. and we saw
peg and chris. (:

thn i rmbred. I FORGOT TO TAKE MY GOODIE BAG! hahas! must quickly go take lor. if not my
arena green bottle will go MIA liao. laughs. but in the end, i did got mine. hahas. green colour
de! hahas.

whn we got back, i wanted to swim agn. but nobody else wants. only zhiwang did. so we two go
swim lor. and guess who i bumped into? Reave from SP! ohmygod. he was there doing warmups
la. hahas. apparantly he was as shocked as me whn he saw me as i could see from his eyes.
laughs. we thn swam la. it felt great actually to feel tht you're swimming correctly. (: Azmi said tht
i was power. hahas! cause i swam 6 laps straight without stopping. with freestyle at that. check
tht out. hahas!

Yikai got 2nd for his event. (: great job, dude. hahas!
Chris got 3rd for our event and Glenn got 3rd
for his. laughs, well done people! all our efforts were paid off! yea! hahas.

nxt we waited for the whole event to end and headed back home. went straight home. no dinner
no nothing. going home to eat ma. hahas. went home with zhiwang, alone. woah. this had nv
happen before la. dont know for what reason, my heart's pumping damn hard la!

arghs. cause marvin andy and jeremy they all eating. and rachel went off alr. so left with only
zhiwang and i. it was sorta awkward in the first place. cause he would always shoot me when
the others were around. now that he was quiet, i really not used to it. so i told him lor. tht i
couldnt stand him being quiet. laughs, thn it all started. hahas.

whn in train, we talked about stuffs la. sch mostly. he asked me bout my course, why i chose
tht and such. which was the one i wanted most for the course choosing. laughs. he thn started
helping me counting my GPA. the numbers couldnt stay in head any longer tht he had to bring
out his phone. laughs. end up i got almost the same score as he did in Yr 1 Sem 1. hahas.

as he was counting, we reached Kranji. (!!) and the lights were on la. so i was like checking out
if there were horses. and he jst asked, 'why? looking out for horses ar?' i was like shocked la,
wasnt he counting my GPA? hahas. observant. (:

thn whn we reached yew tee, whn i said good bye, he was shocked. thn regain agn. hahas.
thanks for the accompanied ride, wangwang. (: hahas.

on the whole, today's a great great day! hahas.

P.S.
AND NOT TO MENTION DAVID WHO KEPT MAKING ME ITCH. hahas. it was funny though.
jst tht i kept struggling. i even rolled my chair over his toes which made it bleed. i'm sorry,
dude. really sorry. ):

P.P.S.
shall edit this post with pictures posted. cause they'll not with me. (:

A Matter Of Trust

Current Location: RP ; W16M.

Current Music: Avril Lavigne – Innocence

sincerity and understanding really are the ones which will help
you go the furthest. (: how do i derive this conclusion? experience.
(: first hand experience.

if you treat people using your most sincere heart, im very very sure
they'll feel it somehow. (: however, there can be people who are
deceiving la. so dont trust people too easily! trust them only whn you
think they're worth trusting.

but you wont know what will happen in future tht will make them spill
your beans. i dont dare to say for others la, but for me, *smiles* you
people can have no worries. i know how it feels like to be betrayed by
someone whom you trusted, especially in the affairs of hearts where
things are complicated. (:

but it really feels good to be trusted. (: especially under circumstances
when you least expect it. hahas.

people will treat you the same when you first came to know each other.
of course, there would be external factors which would bond you better
with the others. maybe like your looks, or the times hanging around etc.
but as time passes by, it's your personality they'll have to live with.

if your character's those bitcy attitude petty sort, people wont be able to
stand you for long. we'll try to accomodate. but it's hard.

im actually shocked tht she go tell the others tht i told marvin something
about her. wth. isnt it the other way round? if you dont believe, you can pull
me marvin and her out tgt. let's see who's ryte. accusing the victim, woah.
i didnt see tht coming. but it's all over alr. jst am glad tht people believe me
instead. sighs.

it's tormenting to see this friendship tored into shreds. and it's all because
of her attitude. i've no wish to lose her as a friend. but her avoiding me when
im not the one in the wrong jst puts me off. if she's continuing like this, avoiding
me like nobody's business, im aint gonna be miss goody any longer. i'm no
longer gng to say 'hi' to you and got snubbed by tht face of yours.

if people trust me, they'll come to me if they have problems. i wont probe.
unless i feel tht you desperately need some help and are not able to say
it out thn would i step in. like his case. tht's me. if you feel tht i could be
trusted, dont worry, your secret is definitely save with me. if you feel otherwise,
so be it. i wont probe. (:

It's Not About Owning Him (:

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: 马骏伟 – 想飞

love is not about possessing. (: i know. tht's why i'm always willing to
hear out his woes with his gf. as much as it hurts me deeply. cause i
know, if his problems are not solved, he would remain sad, remain ..
dead. i dont wanna see him like tht. i would feel terrible.

so why not i jst stay out? i cant. hais. i cant stand seeing him this way.
it's unbearable. thus i've decided to step in, play this role of the
peacemaker, this role of .. bridge. helping him understand how a girl feels.

it's hard la, but still. i helped him . liked what i've said in the first 2 paragraphs.
i wan see no more sorrows in him. wan see no more elmos with him. so i'll
jst help him out. i would feel terrible la.

when there's nothing i can do to comfort him.
when there's nothing i can do except for stoning there.

so i decided to step in. step in to pull him out of this maze even he find himself
missing. dont wanna see him worn out everytime..

so i can conclude, love is not about owning him or what. it's jst tht you will want
him or her to be happy always. (: trust me, you'll feel happy when you see he's
happy. even if it's because of another her, you'll feel happy too. (:

jiayous la! (:

I Lied.

Current Location: RP ; W16M.

Current Music: 迷路兵 – 我为什么还爱你

i lied.
i lied to longfei ytd.

whn i told him i felt nothing whn i saw the pictures
they took together at her friendster profile.

sighs, yvonne ar, why is it so hard for you to face up
to your feelings?
why cant you jst say tht, 'yes, im feeling very terrible,
so terrible tht i find it hard to breathe?'

and all these jst proved me wrong. (: i really have
been thinking too much. (: all those confusions he
had, all the troubles he had, must have been caused
by the competition.

if not she wont have posted the pic alr. hahas. and the
pic must have been taken recently. cause his hair looked
short enough. (:

this blissful smile on her face. (: it seems so sweet so
.. so protected. keep tht smile on her face, dude. i know
you can and will do jst tht. (:

first time in these few months. im really seriously thinking
of giving up. ytd while we were packing for the biathlon stuffs,
whn im done with my stuffs and he had not, i really had this
thought. not jst a thought came flashing by. but a thought here
to stay.

should i give up on you? im really tired and worn out from all
these. does me carrying on will allow you to see me? to see
the love care and concern ive given you?

im not sure. i dont know. will this continuation of waiting bear
fruit? for once i hope someone really wise would answer me..

Agn?!

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: 马骏伟 – 想飞

shit! my bill burst agn le la! die le la! arghs.
im supposed to have only 500 free sms.
last month i overshot by 200+ ; 700+.

this month even more jialat. 1230 messages.
ohmygod. how can i text so many in a month?
die liao.

gotta cut down on my messaging le. but, i dont
recall texting alot..

nvm, nobody will rmbr they text alot de. ): *sob*
mom haven see the bill. dont know how she'll
react whn she saw sia.

what feared me most now is mom will confiscate
my phone. arghs, better text lesser nowadays.

arghs!

adios! (:

Pissed Off.

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: 马骏伟 – 想飞

trouble's brewing in LS. i dont know how to say this.
but i really dont feel good about this whole thing.

it's all as per usual today. thn it all started. this guy
jst got angry agn.

over one small matter. jst because she asked you
to quieten down?

wtf. arent you being too petty a little? i dont like and
dont wanna say this. but dont you think so?

forget it, i have no wish to waste my brain cells over
such matters.

there's nothing i can do also.

Chatted With Dad, Yes! :D

Current Location: RP ; W16M.

Current Music: M2M – The Day You Went Away

dad was online ytd night!
dad was online ytd night!
dad was online ytd night!

hahas! yes i was tht happy.
laughs, cause on twice
occasion whn dad was online,
with webcam somemore, i
wasnt around la.

*grr*

we chatted for only like 10
to 20 mins. hahas, dad conveyed
his misses and stuffs.

laughs, he said tht i cared for my
frens more thn him. NO WAY MANN!
HELL NO! i didnt know dad would be
online on sun. ):

thank goodness dad received my email
ytd. (: thn it would be the best if he can be
online on saturday! yes!

looking forward to saturday!

saturday~
saturday~

Still Water Competition

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: 迷路兵 – 我为什么还爱你

yesterday was the National Lifesaving Competition. (:
im happy to say tht it ended with a splendid fullstop.
and i'll tell you why. (:

i woke up early in the morning at 6.30am. ohmygoodness.
so damn long didnt wake up so early le la. *yawns* im still
feeling tired lor. ):

went to meet corliss and longfei at Yishun Mrt. cause there's
a direct bus to Kallang Basin Swimming Complex (why would
they wanna add a BASIN inside? laughs). was late for 5 mins.
hahas, but they didnt mind la. laughs.

nxt we went straight to the place where we had the competition.
loads of people reach there alr. hahas. he reached there too.
hahas. with his hair trimmed. it looks so funny! hahas!

and the morning sun is so damn scorching. arghs. at tht point
of time i was thinking, 'woah, sure will get sunburn de.' laughs.
and i really did. (:

gary is so damn niang la! he brought out his sunblock, next his
umbrella, thn a mini chair from his car. (..) there's no other advisor
like him lei! laughs, but i know he's concerned for us la. (: want us
to put on the sunblock. for fear tht we'll get skin cancer. but.. but
tht's so nansy pansy la! hahas!

TASK ALLOCATION.
Peg and I were to be the timers.

lol. i thought it would be some fun or something. but okay nia. we
have to be at the competition area at all times. have to take note of
the placing and timing.

aiights, it's an experience gained la. (: quite fun, feels quite new too.
but there's one problem. it had been brewing all the way and yet i
didnt know.

as i didnt wear contact lens, i wore my specs. logical ryte? and guess
what people, i got
one stripe ryte at my temple there all the way to my
hair. (!!) caused by my specs. LAUGHS. we gotta be out there in the sun
what, and thus the 'tattoo' lor. arghs.

the day went on quite well la. shouting 'jiayous' here and there. taking
snip-shots here and there. NOT OF ME HOR. (miracle sia) but of the
competitors. hahas.

whole day long, Peg and i were talking about Kelvin Chen from TP and
Reave from SP. laughs. Kelvin Chen is a damn fast swimmer. and it's
hard to say for Reave la. -.- im sorry to say this la. BUT. i can see his
efforts he'd put in. not during normal trainings but during the competition.

so i find it quite a pity whn he lost hold of the float he's supposed to
flutter back wtih. jiayous! (:

after everything ended, we thn proceeded to
GARY'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATIONS!
laughs. it's so damn funny la.

He's RP Lifesaving Team's Advisor.
and it ended up tht the ones pulling him
into the pool, the ones puting ice on his
tummy ended up to be the NUS Lifesaving
Team. LOL.

i was wondering, as 4 of them pulled him down
and poured ice on his tummy which leaved him
yelling like madness, DID GARY OFFEND THE
NUS PEEPS? laughs, i really cant help wondering!
hahas. thn they jst throw him into the pool.

as soon as he got up, he pulled the NUS people
down with him la. longfei was like asking, why didnt
gary pull the RP people down instead? thn i heard
someone said, cause we arent the ones who pushed
him down! laughs, sounds logical enough eh? hahas.
hope he had loads of fun. (: and to top it all,

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, GARY! (:

nxt was the eating part, after which we went for some
shopping. hahas. 10 people tagged along, including
me. (: they are namely, Peggy, Weisi, Chris, Jessamine,
Longfei, Yongkai, Kay Tiam, Adriel, Yikai and I.

lol, we went to Suntec City by bus. and as per usual, we
were the one to make the most noise. hah! what to say?
who told us to be the fun loving people! hahas.

along the way Yikai and Kay Tiam were like practising their
tamil~ hahas. it's so damn funny la. like duhh. and whn they
spoke to me in tamil, I replied them using the China tone.
laughs, you should have heard how we talked. it's so damn
funny. lol.

nxt, as walked down the citylink, Kay Tiam and I caught Peggy,
Yikai, and Weisi walking so damn fast. aiights, it was only Peg
and Kai, Weisi seems to be tagging along. suspecting something
fishy, Kay Tiam and i went along too.

and whn we got out, we saw Weisi staring at the bushes and Peg
and Kai were nowhere to be seen. laughs, Kay Tiam and I thn both
ran towards la. but ah hah! we saw Peg and Kai hiding behind the
bushes. and my instincts told me to do likewise. i guess Kay Tiam's
too. cause whn i quickly hid in, he was hiding beside me too. LOL.
weisi was like, 'huh? wth.' but she hid with us too. she told us she
thought me and Kay Tiam would catch them out. Never did she
thought that we would hide with them. hahas!

we thn quickly change location. to somewhere we could see if Chris,
Jess, LF, Yongkai and Adriel walked past. but aiyer! Chris saw KPT's
head la! and they didnt got shocked. hmph. lol.

we thn shopped at almost all the sports shops la! laughs, cause me
and weisi were in search of swimming caps. (: but nevertheless, we
didnt find it.

and we thn proceed to the arcade games! yes! hahas. we had actually
dont wanna play de, WE GIRLS. cause the guys did, (Yikai, Longfei, Yongkai
and Adriel) and it seems so so fun! lol. thn we decided to give it a try. (:

laughs, only 3 girls la, (Me, Peg and Weisi) yongkai thn decided to join
in with us. so 4 players lor. and WTH, as soon as i started, i colided with
Yongkai la! hahas. it's so damn funny. thn i swerved here and there for
fear of people knocking into me. laughs, thn Peg came crashing into
me! LOL. Yikai was laughing his head off behind us la! hahas.

In the end, i got the 4th placing. arghs. THIS IS NOT MY USUAL STANDARD,
PEOPLE. hahas. Yongkai say i stupid, dont know why would i swerved here
and there. eh please, DONT QUESTION THE PROFESSIONAL. LOL! what
a lie. hahas.

but it was funn though. (: and we thn went home. cause it's quite late alr.
round 8 plus 9. i dont know what would eils do if she sees this post. better
pray she doesnt. hahas!

fun fun day! (:

W16M Sports Day. (:

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: J.S. – 杀泊浪

TODAY WAS W16M SPORT'S DAY!
hahas, though only
jocc, suyin, xuanwen, kristen,
meryl, sijie, david and me turned up. -.-

hahas. but still, we had our own loads of fun.
laughs. two other people who joined us were
suyin's boyfriend, jianhui (did i spell it correctly)
and samuel, our faci. (: max and yijie
joined us
ltr too. (:

Tennis.
laughs, im the only one today who were involved
in the sports and yet i forgot my sports shoes. it's
like so duhh ryte? hahas!

and tennis is so so tempting! suyin really has the
tennis de seh lor! she looked like someone who's
a tennis player lor! hahas. and not the mention the
skilled players, her boyfriend and samuel. wow,
they were pro mann. they could catch the ball and
jst smack it back lei. hahas! david also quite pro.
non-player lei. and yet he could still play like a pro.
*applause* hahas.

meanwhile i was playing badminton with meryl la.
as time passes, i couldnt stand the temptaion and
wanted to play the tennis. lol. it's not as easy as it
seems lei. hahas. cause the racket also quite heavy. (:
but when the racket hit the ball, the ball could really
bounce
damn far. *phew* and sijie actually hit the
ball outta bounds so many times la!
3 to 4 times, if
i didnt rmbr wrongly. hahas.

nxt jocc came. (: hah, in
heels. (: cause she's gng out
ltr. and she too couldnt stand the temptation of tennis.
and she came playing in her heels. laughs, i really couldnt
tahan her sia. hahas. but i really gotta say this,
she does
have some talents in playing tennis, like david. she totally
has no background in playing tennis lei. and yet she
could easily flunk the racket like a pro and catches the
ball. hahas! thn dav said she got the sporty genes in her.
yep i do agree. (:

and whn we were playing, i heard david
saying this,
'she's tanned ryte?'
i looked over and saw them looking
in my direction. apparently he's talking about me la.
lol, stupid david. hahas. i decided to ignore him. cause
im used to it le. BUT THEN. guess what
samuel
say?
'she's very fair in the past de.'
and i was like, WTH. hahas.
i dont know why i did this, but
i jst bounce the ball on the
floor and use the racket and hit it towards their direction.
i guess i didnt use enough strength. cause dav could easily
catch my ball. (!!) tht was so so humilating la! but i wasnt
pissed off. i jst find it so funny tht i was kneeling on the floor,
laughing. dots to me ryte? hahas, yea i know, (:

Basketball.
laughs, i didnt play much in this section. hahas, you guys
knew why ryte? as much as i love basketball, i still couldnt
play well in it. arghs, jst like what i've said. im a complete
idiot in ball games. sighs.

Swimming.
yes! the one i loved the most has finally arrived! hahas!
i was
so damn hot la. arghs. so i quickly changed and up
i went. kristen, xuanwen and meryl were there liao. hahas,
i didnt wait for sijie. cause she's so damn slow. hahas!
so i quickly go under the shower and off i went, *phoosh*
into the water. it felt so damn great! so damn refreshing la!
hahas.

i thn swam my freestyle. i realised i couldnt swim tht well
or should i say, i couldnt swim tht easy today. hmm. i guess
it's because they were watching me. hah. in our normal trgs,
everybody went down with me la. nobody really watching you
ma. hahas. so it felt sorta strange. hahas.

thn whn i swam breast-stroke back, xuanwen was like shouting
at me, 'vonn ar, you freestyle very slow lei!' hahas. yes i know,
darling. cause the reason why i've been gng down to train during
thurs and fris is because i wanna train my freestyle. hahas.
*spending quality time with ahem* (HAHA)

thn i practise my plunging all tht. hahas. nxt i asked
Azmi if kristen
they all could get down into the water with their clothes. cause
they didnt bring their swim wear. AND AZMI ALLOWED! yes! he's
such a nice dude. (: hahas!

we played loads of stuffs la. and
we practise plunging. not only
me and sijie but
david
as well. (?!) he very funny la. normal way
of plunging, he can do it lei. hahas. thn after tht, i guess he got
tired. and he tried loads of other styles of getting-into-the-water
method. hahas. and i practise my plunging. (: from the board.

hahas, for the first time, i
piak
like hell la! it's so damn pain.
arghs~ thn after tht, i fell into the water la! cause i sorta push
myself off the board and yet i forgot to jump. dots. i was shouting
whn i fell in la, kristen they all laugh like hell. LOL.

hahas, xuanwen's a diver lai de. so she knows the correct way
of plunging. thn she tell me how to do lor. the more i do, the lesser
the times i piak lei. hahas. in the past, i would piak most of the times
de. today, only the first second time i piak. the rest i didnt piak at
all lei! hahas. it's jst tht my legs were still bending. like yikai's de
lor. hmm. needa improve liao.

thn next i tried this 'unassisted lift' on sijie. hahas. she's so light la!
damn easy to pull her up. hahas.

after tht we jst bathe and go off le. (: meryl, sijie and me. (:
the rest continue playing tennis la. LOL. tennis freaks. hahas.
but i wanna play also. laughs, if it wasnt because im tired, i
sure go play de. hahas!

today's a fun fun day, in total! (:
AND SPECIAL THANKS TO LONGFEI WHO ACC ME HOME.
HAHAS. THANKS, MOMMY! (:

and tmr's the still water competition. jiayous, RP Lifesaving Team!
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU! (:

adios, (:

Someone new? C’mon, jst kill me!

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: 迷路兵 – 我为什么还爱你

eils say tht there might be someone new. and tht person's not me.
it sounded so .. so .. demoralizing. arghs. it's totally totally like
Norvin's case la.

from viven to pris. hah, why does such fate follow me everywhere?
eils asked if i had any interaction with him recently. nope, i replied.
last face-to-face interaction, tuesday. msn interaction? wednesday.

hais. i guess i gotta accept it sooner or later. his status' no longer
'In A Relationship' but 'It's complicated'. i guess im the only one
who really took note of his status. of course i would take note.

cause i like him.

and his nick changed from 'hurt..broken..' this morning to something
like to stay away from him cause he's confused and unstable now.
and might jst explode.

im so damn worried la. and i dont dare to ask him whn i saw him
at the pool jst now. it was only whn i see him smiling at longfei
and jessamine thn could i put down this big rock in my heart.

and now there could be this someone new? i really dont know
how to handle this news. i've tried hoaxing myself today tht his
nick could be so because of his competitions nearing. tht he's
feling stressed up.

i tried lying to myself tht it's not in a case of relationship. but eils
words jst pricked my heart like this needle in me. it hurts. it really
hurts alot.

tell me, how can i bring myself to believe tht this type of stuffs
jst happened to me twice in less thn 3 years?

at this point of time, i hope for this feeling of mine to come true.
this feeling within me tht i'll pass on by the age of 19.

if things were really like what eils had said, i'll gladly follow
God NOW. really. i dont wanna face all these. i really have no
wish.

can anyone understand how am i feeling ryte now? it's terrible.
it's hard having to face this once in yr 2005. and now it had to
happen agn in yr 2007? please, spare me from all these.

i dont wanna face it! can someone jst take me away? or better,
extract the feeling of love within me. extract all memories of him.

i jst feeling like bawing into tears right now.

Want Lists – For My Own-

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: M2M – Dear Diary

Things I Wanted	Prices
Necklace from B*Dazzled	S$70
Reflective TYR Goggles	S$30
Lime Green/White Swim Cap	Ranging from S$15 to S$20
Small Float	Ranging from S$12 to S$15
Rashguard	Ranging from S$50 to S$80

The necklace's a priority. Hahas, but I don't know when will I ever save up for it. Had actually intended to give my boyfriend-to-be a chance to give it to me. But when will it be sia? Hahas. And it's like so so ex la. *shake head* So I've decided to save up for it. I know you people would definitely say that it's so not worth it. '70 bucks for jst a necklace?' hah, I know. But this necklace stands a very important place in my heart. It's something like, trying to convey a message to me like tht.. hmm. I think I'm thinking too much la. But I really would wanna have it. (: Jst don't know if they still have it. Arghs.

The TYR reflective goggles. Laughs, it's so damn damn pretty la! I want the white ones. Hahas. It's so cool! (: But hmm, 30 bucks? I would be able to save up for it. Hahas! 30 bucks only, maybe will take me around 1 week? And the shop is only at Causeway Point, so okay la. (:

I've changed the swim wear to rashguards. (: hahas. it didnt come to my mind ytd. but last night, when i was looking at my arm, the part where i had my abrasions, i thn realise, I NEED ONE RASHGUARD. hahas! but tht will have to wait le la. cause quite ex. and our beach trgs wont be tht frequent liao. maybe once a fortnight. ): but i'll get one sooner or ltr la. hahas!

Swimming Cap. Aiights, I need the cap to protect my hair and for better swimming. As you all know, hair will cause resistance. (: and a lime green one or a white one would be so so cool ryte! Yes yes, I can see you people nodding. Hahas! Yes! This one also can la. 15 to 20 bucks. Take me another week lor. (:

Small float. The one tht chopsticks has. It would help in my freestyle. (: to keep my legs straight. The one Peg has have too much buoyancy. I'll go woo woo wow! Hahas. Into the water. (: new expression lei~ Hahas!

Judging from my list, I guess I'll have to starve a bit. Hmm. Jst take it tht I'm on a diet. Hahas, can save up money for the things I wanted and can slim down lei! Woah, where to find such a good offer?! Hahas, but fret not my darlings, I wouldn't really starve myself. (: I'll eat if I feel really hungry. But it would means no chocs for me even if I'm feeling down. Arghs! ):

Hmm. I know when I post it here, people will know and might buy it for my birthday. But people, NO NEED TO DO SO AR. Like what I've said, I'll save up for them. (: such stuffs, must be bought by own money thn meaningful de. Hahas!

And Kgang AKA Laopos, if you all jst buy these stuffs, you girls know what I'll do ryte? I want a meaningful 18^th birthday ar! Hahas. Counting down to 22^nd Sept 2007. (: Where we could eat the sushis! Yea! Hahas!

P.S. In less time 1 month's time, you'll see those items kena strike out liao! wahahahas!

What is This Mann? LOL.

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: M2M – The Day You Went Away

i had the funnist dream ever la!
hahas, but on top of all that, i wanna
say SORRY, to longfei once agn.

laughs, i promised to go online the
moment i reached home.

and the moment i reached home, i
jst went popped on my bed. and slept
till 4pm. ohmygoodness.

sorry la, dragonfly mommy. really sorry! ):

aiights. i dreamt about the RP Biathlon.
*frowns* why would i even dream about
it when it's now on the top of my priorites
ar? i would like to know lei. hahas.

alright, i dreamt tht i'm taking part in this
team relay ( im taking part in individual in
actual fact), tag team with daddy somemore
lei! hahas!

dad had actually wanted to swim and i
run.
thn i was like, huh? although yes i run better
than i swim, i still lose out to daddy when it
comes to running! and i could say i swim
better than daddy la, since i've been having
practises almost everyday?

yep, and so dad started swimming. he swam
freestyle, i rmbr. haha, and it looked like the
freesyle i've used 2 months back; practically
struggling. and so i waited for that command,
for that command from dad to change. hah, and
it did came.

i jst swam la. and to my amaze, i swam damn
fast. sia la, scary lei! hahas. but hey, instead of
being in the pool, we're swimming in the wilds,
for goodness sake. but the water looks like it's
from the pool la. jst tht the sceneries are so much
nicer. hahas!

and it's dont looks like 6 laps or 300m to me lor.
it's gng round and round the world lei. i swam to
alot of places and the amazing thing was, i didnt
feel a sign of tiredness. (:

after tht, it jst seems to end. and i passed tagged
to dad. to which dad sprinted. hahas. and i met
elaine, my niece who's so so funny. hahas we
sorta went on this 'trip' round the place we held
the biathlon. and she took whatever she saw.

i was like, 'huh? dots.' hahas. be it fishes, fruits
or whatever, she jst put inside this bad she've
got and the bad jst dont seems to be able to get
full. hahas!

tht's about it i guess. and the funny part should be
where we held the biathlon i guess. hahas.

adios!

Reminising.

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: Tank – 我们小时候

as i passed down the streets of Jurong, the
memories jst came flooding back. (: it felt good.
it really did.

as i walked down the escalator of Jurong East,
i began
reminising.
as i walked down the path to the bus berth 334,
i began to imagine me myself 10 years back.
as the bus drove down the street to my block,
i got reminded of my grandpa
and tears began to well up in my eyes.

easily get emotional these days. (: hahas, i could
remember the times

whn grandpa brought us to the markets.
whn grandpa brought us to and fro schools.

at tht point of time, i really wish to go back to when
i was only
7 or 8 .
when i dont need to worry about affairs of heart.
when our parents come home with our favourite
power rangers.
when we can play around without any care in this
world.
when
we have our maths as easy as 1 2 3.

hah, if only we could jst turn the clock round. (:
i told mom before, whn i was really really young.

'mommy, how nice would it be if we were to be
able to remain like this forever ryte? with us so
young, not having to worry about anything. no
need to go work.'

to which my mom replied,
'how can? if you all dont grow up, wont it be tht
daddy and i would have to work forever? all of you
need to grow up de. to experience the sweet and
sour of life'

i rmbr i was only 8 thn. only 8 and i've already wished
for my happy childhood to continue forever.

really, if only we could stay like this forever and ever,
our parents and grandparents to dote on us.

stay away from all affairs of hearts.
stay away from this ugly side of humans.

but i guess nobody has the ability to do tht.
i jst wish to dream. one night or any night.
dream of the happy times we had in the past.

whn eils sean and i played the hero games
agn on the table,
and our grandpa came running towards us
with the cane in his hand.
thn our parents came home at this point of
time with our grandma.
and lastly have dinner tgt. (:

tht would be
perfect. (:

Fate la, Cant Deny It! :D

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: S.H.E. - 老婆

it's all fate la. hahas. trust me, i've go so so much
fate with my laopos. i dont call them my laopo for
nothing okay. wahahahahahas!

i've jst blogged this morning saying i'll be seeing
my sinseh for my leg ryte? and off i went lor. alone.
hahas. cause granny needed to wait for sean to
come back and cook lunch for him. (:

it's alright with me la. except for the fact tht i'll be
walking damn damn slow~ hahas. cause of my
ankle la. hais.

as i passed down the streets of Jurong, the
memories jst came flooding back. (: it felt good.
it really did. shall blog more on tht feelings ltr (:

after seeing the sinseh, it was only 11 plus.
had actually promised to meet mommy longfei
130pm, thn go back to RP to see them train.

early ma, so went to Jurong Entertainment there
to 'sorta' shop for time to while. and whn i was
walking, guess who i saw?

KAREN AND XIAOWEI! rens jst popped out in
front of me la. i thought who so rude, jst pop
out in front of someone jst like tht. i was texting
her ma. thus i was so damn shocked, no. suprise
to see her actually in front of me lei! hahas.

she and xiaowei were studying at jurong library.
(: tht's what i call FATE. hahas. i was hesitating
whether should i go back to sch with longfei or
stay with them.

see ar, if i go back with longfei, i'll get to see what
they've learn for the day and i'll get to see him.


if i stay, i'll get to spend quality time with my laopos.


hard choice lor. but in the end i chose my laopos.

hahas. ps longfei la. IM SORRY, LONGFEI MOMMY.
I'M REALLY AM. ):

hahas, girls, be grateful ar. hahas. thn i acc them
go eat lunch since i've not had mine either. and we
ate KFC. laughs. alright, i promised no more stuffs
tht will harm my throat okay? hahas. but im still
fessing up what i ate today. rens and wei had wasted
so much of their saliva psycho-ing me outta it.

but no use. hahas. my determination is strong!
hahas!

after tht we proceed to the library lor. and guess what?
rens and wei got a friendly reminder~


'dear visitors, you're reminded not to reserve any seats,
for the consideration of others...' blah blah blah. LOL.
so cool mann!

thus while they're studying, i go borrow books on horses
and dogs! wow. one whole pile mann! lol.

there's this book on, '1001 Reasons To Love Horse'. hahas.
there's loads of meaningful sentences lor. i handcopied them
lei. sia la, though not all. but hand still tired de lei. hahas.

halfway through, jas came to meet up with us. (: you all should
know la, with jas around, really cannot have peace for more thn
5mins de. hahas!

alright la. though today only meet up with them, reading books,
looking at them studying, i'm still damn damn happy! hahas.

i love my girls! (:

Ankle Failed On Me! Darn!

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: M2M – Dear Diary

alright. i didnt skip school for no reason today.
seriously. my ankle needs my attention. desperately.
it has been calling out to me for days and days
liao. but i jst ignored it.

laughs, only until last night. it decided to go on
a strike. it jst hurts like hell la. damn it. okok,
it's my bad. i shouldnt have blame it.

and im sorry mom. i shouldnt have attitude you
ytd. i know you were concerned for me, concerned
for my leg. but i dont know why i jst flared up ytd.

maybe because my leg sorta fail on me and you
kept telling me not to swim alr. it jst sorta pissed
me off. am glad tht everything's fine now. (:

alrights, i'll be setting off for my usual sinseh destination,
Blk 557. had actually intended to go to this Yishun sinseh
de. cause i thought Blk 557 didnt open today. so i asked
tht woodblock Yikai lor. and as per usual, he didnt reply.
he's so so dead mann. hahas. forget it, who ask him
to have a processor of only pentium 1? too wols. hahas!

i dont care, my leg gotta recover by this week. cause
there's biathlon nxt week. swimming cum running.

300m of swimming aka 6 laps.
and
1.5km of running aka 1 round of RP.


i did it before la, so should be can. hahas. and i intend
to use freestyles! woots! hahas. and got free tee-shirt
lei! arena de! wow whee! hahas. i know you people sure
say i gian peng de. but, WHO CARES. hahas! arena lei!
woots! im not gonna press myself hard for this bia.

just try my best. hahas. competing against myself instead
of the others. in this way, i'll perform better.

alright, this is MY case. in yikai's, longfei's and yongkai's
case, they need some competition de. hahas!

jiayous for the competition this sunday, RP!
go RP! trash those people! woots!

Note to Him:
Dont get too pressurized, dude. You wont pull the team down.
Cause we're a team. One for all, all for one. (: Unity Red Cross
motto, hahas. Jst do your best, we can alr sense your hard work
and efforts. (: Jst do and give your very best! But cannot overtrain
ar. No overtraining is allowed. (: It'll tire you out easily.

yea, tht's about it. thought i dont think he'll know. hahas, tht's the
purpose ar. i wanna convey my concerns but i dont want him to
know. (: jiayou! hahas. (:

hahas, adios! (:

No Longer Moody, wheee!

Current Location: RP ; W16M.

Current Music: Avril Lavigne – Innocence

hah, should i jst sign up for
'the world unluckiest person'
or what?

im still adjusting. im still
adjusting to it, mind you.
and now you're taking this
to jest at me agn?

arghs. fuck.

guess what? jst downstairs.
i bumped into them agn jst
downstairs. agn? wth.

it's only me, and the 2 of them.
why does it have to be like this?
why couldnt i be with my friends?
or not, friend? so i can pretend
to talk to her and act nonchalant
about meeting them.

but i was alone. alone. and our
eyes met alr. i couldnt possibly
act like i didnt see them, could i?
tht would be so so fake, please.

well, i didnt say or wave 'hi' the
moment our eyes met, i quivered
abit. before i could have the courage
to wave at him. alright, he waved
back too.

right after i've walked past them,
i could hear and feel my heart
pumping so damn fast! and i could
sense my lips trembling.

it's so lucky he didnt see this side
of me. by ohmygod. why do these
type of things always happen to me?
and when i meant always, it really
is so.

arghs. if you're thinking tht this would
get me down, you're so so wrong!
hah! suprised eh? wahahahhahas.

i didnt forget the entry i've post ytd.
i'll revert back to the bubbly self of
me 2 months back!

hahas, stupid chopsticks CUM woodpecker!
dont ever think of bringing tears to my eyes
ever agn! wahahahahas!

yvonne's a strong girl mann~!
even without her sexy voice now. hahas!

she wont see these as setbacks which
brings her down. she'll jst see all these
as obstacles.obstacles to get her stronger.

hahas!

bring it on mann! (:

Numb Totally.

Current Location: RP ; W16M.

Current Music: M2M – Give A Little Love

the distance between me and him resembles an ocean.
and the distance jst keeps getting wider and wider.

what can i ever do to pull the distance between us closer?
sighs. i guess im jst like what he said, wols. too slow.

slow in knowing him.
slow in knowing him in depth.
slow in liking him.
slow in everything.

i guess it's official alr. i guess they're officailly patched.
his friendster profile no longer put 'It's complicated',
but was replaced by 'In A Relationship'.

hah, i should be feeling glad, shouldnt i?
i should be feeling glad tht they no longer face any problems,
shouldn i?
i should be glad tht he's feeling happy once again,
shouldnt i?
i should be glad tht i no longer need to worry about him agn,
shouldnt i?

thn why has this feeling of uneasiness and sadness found
its way to my heart? found its way to my emotions?

i think i'll pick up junguang's method. keep myself busy and
distracted. trainings and more trainings. or not, the quality
time spent with my loves.

alright, i know it's all my fault tht im in this plight.
it's all my fault tht i dont wanna give up.
it's all my fault to think too much.

he dont even care bout you! your boat capsized and what he
did he do may i ask? he jst surfed past. you should know where
you stand silly.

im warning you,
if you ever worry about him agn,
if you ever cared about him agn,
if you ever think about him agn,
if you ever link romantically with him agn,
bear the consequences yourself.
nobody's gonna care.

the heartbreaks, the tears, the longings, the care and concerns,
he'll never know. cause he's hugging another sweetheart in his
arms. he'll never know where you'll be. he'll never see you. and
most importantly of all, he'll never be able to feel the affections
you've given him. never.

yvonne i wanna ask you. why are you such a loser? first was NH.
now him? hah, cant you jst cut yourself from all these? they'll
bring you nothing but endless hurt and wounds.

she's numb now. numb from all feelings.
trust me, she's really got it in her head deep this time.

someone told her, 'guys sucks ryte?'
to which she replied, 'yea,' at tht point of time.

but now she knows.

it's not the guys who sucks.
it's her.

Rewind & Freeze!

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: S.H.E. – 老婆

hah, jocc said tht i've changed.
changed from a bubbly personality 2 months back
to now, a girl who's easily teared because of him.

haha. i felt this way too.
i've changed alot. emotionally.
really alot.

rarrrs! i dont wanna be like tht!
i tell you what. i'll be my usual cheerful
self whom i was 2 months back!
yea! hahas.

so what if he got a girlfriend? it doesnt
means it's the end of my life ryte? ah hah!

hahas. yea!

Dad’s In Germany Alr! ]=

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: Avril Lavigne – Everything Back But You

aiights. dad's in germany now. arghs.

we went to see him off ytd at Changi Airport Terminal 1/2.
the flight was 2305 hrs la. but cause we had our uncle
to fetch us home, so we went home at round 9plus 10.
and leave mom with her eyes watered, with mine, eils
and sean's feeling damn damn down. arghs.

the time passed were so damn fast la. hais. yesterday
dad flew at 2305 hrs. and he would only reach germany
today, 1100hrs plus. 11 hrs of flight lei. straight flight.

and when dad got his things settled, which was at round
1pm plus, he texted mom. saying tht he reached alr. (:
and tht point of time, i was doing facial. lol. i didnt know the
condition of my face was so worst la. loads of small small
achnes. die la.

hahas. and it's damn damn pain. forget it. it's over. hahas.
now i gotta wait for 1 week thn can my face be cleared. hahas.

alright, back to my dad issue. 2 mths. daddy would only be
back in 2 months. frens told me tht 2 months passes real
quickly de. i know. but one thing tht made me felt terrible
was tht, dad wont be celebrating my 18th birthday with me la.
it really feel damn bad la. my dad dote on us loads loads lei.

but my birthday.. hais. forget it. i guess i'll jst hold my dad to his
promise tht he'll celebrate with me when he comes back on the
7th Oct. (:

*time will pass very quickly*
*time will pass very quickly*

hahas!

I Love My Girls! :D

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: M2M – Girl In Your Dreams

yes yes yes! i've finally met up with my girls today! and for k-ing session
somemore! wow wheee! hahas. though only rens, jas, and loo showed
up, im still damn contented. lins, tzee, you girls are being missed! (:

i today skipped sch la. cause the arranged to meet at 1345. at causeway.
and i seriously have no mood to attend lessons. SO, i skipped agn.
hees. but i promise, this shall be the last time i skip sch this semester.
no nxt time le. promise. (:

laughs, enough about skipping school. it's not even the main thing today.
cause the main thing's the treasured time spent with my girls! hahas.

we waited lonng lonng time for RENS la. she's the first one to be done
amongst us lei. when she called me, we're both in sch. she in IJ, me in
RP. and please bear in mind tht the distance are around the same to
causeway point. when i reached woodlands control station, she still in
IJ.
when jas and loo reached causeway, she's still in IJ! OMG. what the
hell are you doing, my dear girl? LOL. and as usual, we ignored her.
hah! and there's nothing she could do also. but we returned to normal
le la. hahas. as usual, we couldnt really ignore someone for long. even
if we were playing. hah!

nxt was the kbox session. lol. kstudent; from 3pm to 7pm. quite worth it
la hor? hahas. for 15 bucks. and i ended up spending my allowance up
till nxt tues. DIE LE. hahas.

and during the first few minutes, JIELIN DEARIE TURNED UP! yea! hahas.
though it's only for like 10 mins, but it's being treasure loads loads! laughs.

and we did what we did. we sang sang sang and you might not know it.
the gears in my throat are grr-ing liao. hahas. and to top it all, i ate most
of the tidbits there! yea! laughs. congrats to vonns having a sore sore
throat! LOL.

she sounds so MANN now. lol. wanna hear? give her a call thn. hahas!
by meeting up with her girlfriends, you can tell tht they would always leave
her in a good mood. (:

no matter how much he bring me down, my girls will definitely do a good
job bring me up again. (: way better than a chocolate did. hahas. and you
girls always give me the best advices.

one thing to complain about would be that, time passes exceptionally fast
when im with you girls! it's so damn fast la. why wont time pass faster when
im facing the difficulties? hais. i guess tht's life for you. (:

nxt meet-up i guess would be round 20 days ltr? when jas and loo are done
with their big papers. and nxt crazy event to look out for, MY BIRTHDAY!
wheee! hahas. (:

P.S. He asked why would i know his dog's name when he's so sure no one
in LS knows. LOL. Doesnt he know tht he had his dog's pic, WITH ITS NAME
in friendster? Silly guy. LOL. And i scored 5 qns ryte outta 6. hahas!

adios! (:

Lil Achievements.

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: M2M – Don't Say You Love Me

vonn's lil achievement of the day!

she swam 16 laps of freestyle,
and did 18 surface dives ; aka
9 laps. (: all freestyle lei! woots!

still having fever this morning.
laughs, was damn afraid i cant
swim la. so quickly ate my medicine.

hahas. i promised longfei i'd
swim only 6 laps. and see how
much i swam? hahas!

but i'm pleased with myself.
i'm really pleased. (:

in the past, she wont be freestyling,
she'll be struggling. hahas.

drats. not in the mood to blog
anymore. damn it. all because
of my curiosity.

forget it.

Sick and Yet I Swam, OMG.

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: S.H.E. – Watch Me Shine

alright, i fessed up. i shouldnt have swam today when i'm sick. my bad.
but i really feel like swimming! loads of things corked up recently. and
only swimming would give me the relaxing feeling. thus i got myself
geared and off to the pool i went.

but i'm feeling so damn COLD. *blurr* off i went, into the pool and the
next second you'll see me scrambling back up. cause the water is so
damn cold la. you can hear my teeth clattering lor.

and nxt, i soaked my legs in the water. to get use to the water. corliss
was like worried for me la. and i assured her that i'll be alright. (: silly
girl. hahas. she today siao de lor. talked non-stop bout the mental
hospital. i guess she missed gng back there. hahas!

after i've got used to the water, off i went for my freestyle. hahas! i
cant deny. IT FELT DAMN GOOD. (: once i reached there, i blew
bubbles 10 times to catch my breath and i swam breast-stroke
back. WTH. when i got back, they needa practise liao. so i cant
practise my surface dive and free. forget it. even if they didnt
practise, i cant too. cause of my body condition. feeling damn
shagged la. couldnt continue.

actually i knew tht i was running a fever early in the morning.
hahas. cause i felt damn cold and unwell. so i took my temperature.
indeed. a fever. laughs. but i promise longfei liao. couldnt
dishonour my promise. hahas.

so we went to funan IT mall today, downtown east and we
went to CHANGI AIRPORT! yea! hahas. dont know why, jst
feel like watching the planes. so ask longfei acc me. hahas.

alright, the bus ride from changi airport to woodlands was
damn damn lonng~ made me feel like puking. lol.
motion-sickness; i'll call this. hahas.

met up with corliss. hahas. WE WERE LATE. SORRY
CORLISS BABY! (: but cor today siao siao de.

hais. i think her staying at home today, not talking for 5 hours
freaked her out. hahas! she kept talking about the hougang
chalet la. i think she miss gng back there. hahas! nvm, i'll
bring you back next time kays!

hahas! alright. i wanna say this, i love my sis! (: she came
all the way from home to RP jst to bring my my card and
medicine. hahas. i love you eils! (:

but i'm feeling damn pek chek now. cause i couldnt get
a chance to talk to him. hmph. feeling so damn sianns
la. sick, saw him and yet i couldnt talk to him. hais.

it's jst so demoralizing la. hahas. forget it. no talking
better ryte? hais.

blahh!

Yvonne Jiayous!

Current Location: Home.

Current Music: S.H.E. – 老婆

thanks rens. really. thanks you loads loads. if not for you today, i really
dont know what i would do. i guess i would jst bottle them up inside me.
and 'collect' more of it agn. thn one day i would jst explode.

hah, and tht's what happened today. i jst lose it. under the issues of
friendships problems, daddy going to germany for 2 months, me
couldnt catch up with my science modules of chemistry. i jst lose it
today.

in front of corliss. i'm sorry. but i couldnt control it. i really couldnt.
the tears jst came flowing down like the raindrops which i couldnt
stop. he came running over asking how was i. he too. i was shocked.
i really am. but i couldnt trust myself to answer them. i couldnt
trust my voice. i'm sorry people, i'm really sorry.

felt worse when i was walking outta school. decide to give rens a call.
since she's the nearest. well, i'm right on. (: she jst got released from
school too. (: i met up with her and i did it agn.

on the train. when there were jst the 2 of us. rens had actually told me
to stop crying. but decided to do likewise. cause she say it's better to
vent it all out. (: thanks darling. (:

i rmbr someone consoling me, saying that i'm a strong girl. so buck
up. hah, but am i? am i really a strong girl? or do i jst seems strong on
the outside but cracky on the inside?

nahh, i dont wanna be that. i wanna be strong on both the outside and
the inside. and i believe i can do it. (:

after tmr. settle everything tmr once and for all. and i'll be back to my
bubbly self 2 months back. hahas!

thanks darling, thanks rens darling! (: for being there when i needed
you. you gave me the best support i could ever wish for. (: i really thank
god for bringing you girls to me. i really am. (: though i've been teasing
you and bullying you, you knew all along that i love you loads loads
ryte? (: well if you dont, i'll tell you now. I LOVE YOU! (: *muacks*

thanks to jas darling too. i know you'll blame me for saying thanks again.
but i dont know what else could i say. though i didnt meet up with you
today, your support you gave over msn got transferred over. (: i love
you much much too girl! jiayous for your exams! stop singing le! for
now! hahas. we'll sing agn tgt! hahas. I LOVE YOU! (: *muacks*

nahh, dedicated to you girls ;

朋友
姐妹
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我们的默契骄傲
扶持与包容
老婆
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我们一起打沟沟
请记得约定的旅程到永久

and thanks to longfei mommy. (: hahas. thanks for your endless
support and consoles. i know you've sacrifices your sleeping time
by consoling me. hahas! i couldnt thank you enough for being beside
me when i'm feeling down. (:

yvonne will be well agn! yea! (: