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eils say tht there might be someone new. and tht person's not me.
it sounded so .. so .. demoralizing. arghs. it's totally totally like
Norvin's case la.
from viven to pris. hah, why does such fate follow me everywhere?
eils asked if i had any interaction with him recently. nope, i replied.
last face-to-face interaction, tuesday. msn interaction? wednesday.
hais. i guess i gotta accept it sooner or later. his status' no longer
'In A Relationship' but 'It's complicated'. i guess im the only one
who really took note of his status. of course i would take note.
cause i like him.
and his nick changed from 'hurt..broken..' this morning to something
like to stay away from him cause he's confused and unstable now.
and might jst explode.
im so damn worried la. and i dont dare to ask him whn i saw him
at the pool jst now. it was only whn i see him smiling at longfei
and jessamine thn could i put down this big rock in my heart.
and now there could be this someone new? i really dont know
how to handle this news. i've tried hoaxing myself today tht his
nick could be so because of his competitions nearing. tht he's
feling stressed up.
i tried lying to myself tht it's not in a case of relationship. but eils
words jst pricked my heart like this needle in me. it hurts. it really
hurts alot.
tell me, how can i bring myself to believe tht this type of stuffs
jst happened to me twice in less thn 3 years?
at this point of time, i hope for this feeling of mine to come true.
this feeling within me tht i'll pass on by the age of 19.
if things were really like what eils had said, i'll gladly follow
God NOW. really. i dont wanna face all these. i really have no
wish.
can anyone understand how am i feeling ryte now? it's terrible.
it's hard having to face this once in yr 2005. and now it had to
happen agn in yr 2007? please, spare me from all these.
i dont wanna face it! can someone jst take me away? or better,
extract the feeling of love within me. extract all memories of him.
i jst feeling like bawing into tears right now.
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