decisions > affecting your life

perhaps i shouldn't have finish watching Down With Love at such a fast speed. now i feel damn lost can! nothing to do, nothing to look forward to. ):

gahhhh!

sigh, i miss kgang ):
i miss karen and her stupid comments.
i miss carol and her lame lame jokes.
i miss jielin and her slow reactions.
i miss jasmin and her witty thinkings.
i miss tzemin and her lousy chinese.

): we didn't even have a reunion dinner this time rounddd. and it's all due to our super crazy hectic lives.

sigh, now that i've graduated. i'm really at lost as to what to do! study? work? or to pursue my dreams?

study > how i wish! but i've got no money! and i can't possibly get daddy mommy to mortage our flat?! that is like so uuber scary!! ): no, no way!!

work > what can i work as?! something that i love does not seem that possible. ): do something i totally have NO interest in? no way too!!

pursue my dreams > how i very very much wish too!! but, i'm not sure how much hope can i put in this. i've been wishing for this dream to come true for like ... 4 years? sigh, but now that i'm free, no sch no nothing, i can truely put my heart and soul into making it happen! hmm.

tough decision to make. =\

please give me some guidance, please.

graduate, no?

UT 3 for Sports Biz, CCM and Leisure Planning are down. left with Sports Coaching and OL tomorrow @ 0830 hr and 1400 hr respectively.

after that, i'll be a free person totally. a free person who has no more school. a free person who is free to choose what path she wants to embark on now.

a path that she has to stick to, the path that would decide her future for her.

and all of the sudden, she doesn't feel like graduating out of RP.

cause graduating out of RP would means,

x. not being able to see her beloved course mates as regularly as how is now.
x. not being able to fool around with her beloved course mates every now and then.
x. not being able to do things productive as how she was doing.
x. not using much of her brains.
x. not much socialising.

OMG. ): I AM SO GOING TO MISS THEMMMMMMM. ):
at the thought of this, i dont want to graduate again! ):

empty, emptied

everybody has got a past, right?

you can't possibly meet someone new,
and expect that someone to be as empty as you are, right?

when you want to throw away your past,
you can't possibly expect that someone to throw away his, right?

when you are tattered and torn,
hoping that someone will pick you up to sew you back,

you can't just hope, right?

right.

i wish i knew.

does it mean that i like you
when the thought of you brings a smile to my face?

does it mean that i like you
when i hope to see you everyday?

does it mean that i like you
when i get upset easily because of you?

does it mean that i like you
when my heart goes thump thump at the sight of you?

does it mean that i like you
when i need to breathe hard to fill the hole in my chest at the thought of you?

does it mean that i like you
when you remind me of my past failures?

does it mean that i like you
when i hope to find more linkage between us?

does it mean that i like you
when i'm raking my brains to think of topics to talk to you?

does it mean that i like you
when i wish i could read your mind sometimes?

does it mean that i like you
when i wonder what would happen between us?



i wish i knew.

boring sports biz

omg. class is so boring cann. i had never liked 'Sports Business' much. and this morning's lazing in bed mood totally caught up to me. sigh. boring! :\

i got so excited when i saw him sitting there. silly me. :\

Race Start 2010!

Current Location: Home, Room.
Current Music: Ring Ding Dong - SHINee.

A headstart to 2010, a RJ question I shall give. (: Heh. Kidding! It's just one RJ (my first RJ of the year) that I find interesting. (:

Reflect on your learning experience today. Write about it like how you would write in your own journal/blog.

School was tiring today! I guess it was because of the building holiday energy within me that's not dissipating yet. I hope my energy level will come back soon! Don't like the feeling of not achieving anything fruitful after a day in school, which would make me feel as though I had not learnt anything.

Today’s OL was about the transferring of learning. I had never thought much of transferring whatever we had learnt as long as there was debrief. Perhaps even when I had transfer, I had no idea that I had done that actually.

Things like perhaps the comfort zone, panic zone thing; I had linked it to life countless times when I had no idea it was actually a mode of transferring.

Like me linking myself to being at the comfort zone all the time is really no joke. I can’t trust people readily, not always willing to take a step out to make more new friends. I am in my own comfort zone and I am happy with it. This can be a mode of transferring too, I guess.

When doing camps, I would link debriefs to life, always. Others might think that I’m being somewhat of trying to be a philosopher or something? I don’t know and I don’t care. Because I think that by linking what the participants had done to life is always very inspiring to them and can inspire them to achieve some things they thought they had never been able to achieve.

Like teaching the participants navigations for examples; I told the participants that the compasses in their lives are their parents, their teachers and their instructors. They would direct them to the right direction; however, whether they will follow is another matter and such.

Inspiring debrief, my partner told me and that he liked it, because he can relate to what I was talking about.

This, I believe would be the metaphoric transfer. See! I’m able to relate back to what I’ve learnt for today!

Lastly, I believe every little thing in life would be able to allow us to reflect on it and transfer the learning to every other thing as well.

Therefore, never stop learning! Never stop exploring!

(P.S. Sorry PK if it’s full of randomness! Because, that’s really how I would blog! Will put this as one of my entry! Thank you!)

Last Dayyy.

Current Location: Korea, Songdo Metro Hotel.
Current Music: -

Tonight's the last day of our stay in Korea! Haha, kinda can't bear to leave here you knowwww. The weather although is chilling, but it's really nice. Wayyyy nicer than what we have in Singapore. Omggg.

Sigh. Nothing I guess. Hopes dashed. Sigh.

Greetings From Korea! :D

Current Location: Korea, Flora Hotel.
Current Music: -

I'm so glad there's internet connection here, the hotel we stayed at the previous night had none. Haha.

Today's the first day of our itinerary of the trip, the start of all activities and all. (: And too, it's so freezing coldddd. Lol. But our tour guide said that today's the last day of the freezing coldness. Tomorrow will start with a warmer day. Hope that will make all of us feel better. (:

Whee! Ski tmr!! :D :D :D

I feel that my hopes are getting dimmer by the day. Sigh, I had wished for it to come true so much so much by this year. Sigh, I can only hope now. Please, please.

Wheeeee

Current Location: Home, room.
Current Music: The Chipettes - Single Ladies (Put A Ring On It).

Omggggg. The Chipmunks are back with the Chipettes! Heheheeh! The OST is greeeeeeeat!

Leaving for Korea the next morning. Heh. Hope it would be very enjoyable! Don't let me down! (:

Big Difference

Current Location: Home, room.
Current Music: -

I saw the number of posts I had for 2007 and 2008. Thn I looked at my posts for 2009.

And I wonder, what's wrong?

LOL.