*breathes out*

no phone. still no phone. omggg. what to do. what to do.

no lah, she couldn't be a fraud case... should i ask her? but would it be like rude if i ask her?

dilemma dilemma. mommy has been comforting me that it's no fraud case and that i'll definitely get my phone soon.

but. my heart is still like. hanging in mid-air or something.

arghs, shall try not to get bothered by it.

):

(:

super happy t'day!! hehe, 'cause not only did things go on well in work, well in the other aspects as well. (:

i won't say 'relationship' sector, 'cause he's only an eyecandy if not a crush.

erm. eyecandy, eyecandy. 'cause he's got a girl friend yah. so yep, eyecandy. hehe. regarding what it is, i shan't say further. just that. hmm i can sense things getting harder for me though.

hope i'll be able to get over this pretty quickly. get a new eyecandy, a more healthy one. (:

holidays tomorrow, slackinggg at home. (:

phone this week!! hopefully thursday!! hahaha!!

):

): just read from the net that manchurianp@yahoo.com is a fraud case or something... some user said that he/she bought a phone from her and she didn't send the phone.

but there're other users stating that they all get their phones from her. slow, she may be. but she did send the phone.

hmm. but why is my heart so unsettled? 'cause it's a big sum of money to me? 'cause it's the first time i'm buying phone online? 'cause i've never met her before? 'cause i didn't think enough before sending the money over?

well, not really. more like it's because she hadn't reply my mail ever since i asked her if she'd sent my phone. :\

she's usually quite prompt in her reply. so... god. i'm freaking out nowww.

praying that things will go fine for my phone!!! ):

Samsung Nori F (Y)

ain't this phone pretty or what! hahaha, first saw this phone from 'Mischievious Kiss'. the korean version of 'It Started With A Kiss'. HEHEHE. and i instantly fell in love with it. (: *swoons*

at first i thought it was this LG Lollipop phone? alright, dumb of me i know. HAHA and i was really about to buy the Lollipop phone when my contract's up tomorrow.

thn. i read from Yahoo! questions that it's actually this Samsung Nori F. HEHEHE it's so very very pretty aiights!!

HAHA i tried ways and means to see if this phone could get into Singapore. like, with contract or something? nahh, found nothing.

see if this phone could be used in Singapore, like with its SIM card usages and all, nothing too.

thank god i found manchurianp@yahoo.com 's email on various Yahoo! questions. she said that she can help bring in this phone for me!!!

haha!! and i've been a SUPER irritating customer. HEHE. you guys know me lah huh. if i want something, i would get it. hmm, not that much of a good trait huh. and i would ensure this, ensure that. ensure that everything is fine.

lol. just transfer the money over to her today. HEHE. hope she won't think i'm a nuisance or whatsoever. she said that i would get the phone latest by next week!!

and by then i would be able to use it and explore it!!

yay!!

Work @ RWS + (SUPER TOUCHED)

heyyyyyy. haha i've been quite ... busy recently. (: due to the work given at RWS HR. haha, i even went back to work ytd, which was actually a public holiday? only because if i dont do that, i would have tons of stuffs to do when i'm back to work on monday. and i dont want that. (:

well, i need to remain calm and everything for work.

(EILS JUST GAVE ME MY PRESENT FOR MY 21ST. IT'S A PAIR OF PANTS I CAN WEAR TO WORK!!! HEARTS HER LOADS. :D)

i was saying, i need to remain calm and level-headed for work. cause i'm always rushy and want things to be done quick and well. which made me having sweaty palms. ): and sweaty palms means that my heart is weak. ): plus i not only have sweaty palms but also sweaty feet. which made my situation double the worse.

so, i will have to stay calm no matter what. ok? yvonne, remain calm in whatever you do. dont rush everything. leave everything to a flow k?

jiayou!


(I'M STILL SUPER TOUCHED BY EILS. HEHE!! :D)

new jobbb (:

heeeeey!! :D i'm finally starting to work, again! :D hehehehe! thanks so much to karen! :D i'm now working at this resort world's hr department, in charge of the casino. (:

tmr will be my third day of work, overtaking guo si, who left on friday. too bad i couldn't work anymore with her. she's such a nice girl! haha, thank god she's staying at yew tee too! so we can meet up for dinner! (:

haha. new day tmr. sheesh. i'm kinda excited and yet afraid at the same time. hehe, excited because i like the job scope and hope i'll be able to do it well. afraid, well yea. because i'm afraid i won't be able to do it well. HEHE.

and while i'm working the past two days, i kept getting reminded of 'xiang qin' from 'it started with a kiss'. HAHA. retarded, yes i know. HEHE. like, i keep thinking, 'no, i'm not as dumb as xiang qin. i can do the job well. yes i can do the job well.' HAHA crazzzzzy!

anyway. my contract stated three months plus. haha, hope i'll be able to do my job well. (:

and. omg. ):

it's my 21st in a month's time. blahhh. why am i aging so fast?!!

Abortion, no?

Something I read from FB. :\ You can actually imagine it in front of you, sigh. Though abortion may seem to be the only solution sometimes, do think of the little life inside of you, think of how he/she needs you to live. Safe sex, people. Safe sex.

♥♥♥

Hi, Mommy. I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.

You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.

Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I don't like it, Mommy.

Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.

I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.

Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?

You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?

It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake, any more?

I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.

...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!

Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!

Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.

Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!


I love you, Mommy.

Every abortion is just…

One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.

If you’re against abortion, reblog.

fb, against abortion note.

speechless

alright. verdict's out. i didn't get chosen to participate in One Million Stars Season 7. :\

hmm. i don't know how i'm feeling now. when the results just got announced, i'm like. ._. ok, i've expected that. but still, i can't find that little bit of disappointment inside of me.

off to home next. thn afterwards, i felt relieved?

hmm i don't know! this feeling is like kinda weird. i still can't put it into words yet.

mixed feelings maybe. dejected feelings definitely. and what else. hmm. no idea yet.

shall update again, if possible. (:

tons on minddd

i was supposed to work today? but i wasn't feeling quite well yesterday and thus, here i am; at home. (:

don't know for what reason, i was feeling cold all of a sudden? when the rest of my colleagues were like ... warm? due to the lightings. phewww. and my head was throbbing. tummy was churning. goodness, i certainly don't want to go through that again.

new outlet ... not bad. (: my sales improved by quite abit. and. i'm tired of it already. i mean. i don't like competitions. i don't like to go to the counter and ask for my receipts. but if you don't do that, the korean in-charges might think that you have no receipts and were like doing nothing?

gawddd i'm so tired of it. from tomorrow onwards, i'm so not going to push my sales. when there's customers, i'll of course serve them. 'cause that's my job. but i'm not going to be like CRAZY over it.

seriously stressful. i'm counting on the basic pay. haha! i'm pratically working the full-timer timing nowww. sheesh. that WAS really tiring. the good thing about this? i'm working the morning shifts most of the time. so i don't have to go home late.

i don't like to go home late. i hate going home late. unless i'm out with kgang or with my family? else. uh uh. i don't like. (:

yep! i'm a very family person. haha!

WHEEEEEEE!! tze darling is coming back to singapore soon!! on the 28th!! hehe! i'm going to fetch her backkkk! hahaha! the rest too i think, 'cause it's a monday and some of 'em have workkk.

n'mind dear! u get to see my face! that will do right~? HAHA!

ANDDDDDD OMGGGG ECLIPSE IS FINALLY COMINGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

totally can't wait for that too!! haha!

aiights, i'm so going to google for previews. :D bye!

citylink!!

today's my first day working at the new outlet; citylink! :D business is SO good today!! i mean, we have customers streaming in ALL THE TIME. hehe, me like this sign a lot a lot. (:

and and and!! daddy mommy eils and sean dropped by too! and they waited for me to end work! :D hehe, thn off we go to have dinner at RU LAI where we had not have dinner for a longgg longgg timeee. :D hehe, it's too a celebration for eils' 19th birthday? :D

i owe you a belated present k sis! loves you tons! :D

a few notes to be happy about transfering to citylink. (: one of the main thing is because i don't have to face the A! :D

seriously, i can't stand her any longer. i know, i had not been talking about her alot here. but seriously. her actions are SO much worse than helena. aiights, shan't talk about it. will piss me off further.

but not working at suntec, i'm so going to miss rachel and claudia!! ): ): rachel without saying is definite, we're practically on the same frequency!! and claudia! though i don't know her for a long time, she's really a very very nice lady!! she's a taiwanese and SUPER FRIENDLY. :D shall drop by suntec when there's time! hehe!

haha, and i got to work with michelle today!! for the very first time!! too bad she's not stationed here always. ): ): i like working with her!! and mr jeon!! he's a very nice man! a very fatherly figure! haha! and they're both at plaza singapura. :\

if only i'm stationed there huh. haha, aiights. i shall not whine. being stationed at citylink is gooooooood. the location is good, the superior is someone i like too. selena! haha, i like her alot alot too. haha.

helena was helping out at citylink today too. and ohmymy, she's in such a GOOD mood! haha, i guess it's because it's not so stressful here at citylink when the sales are quite good. (:

working full-shift tomorrow. and the day after tomorrow. and the day after tomorrow's tomorrow. yeppp you've got the drift. i'm working full-shift the whole of this week. 'cause michelle said that it's the first week's opening? not enough people to help out, so i'll have to help out. (: which i'm happy to. 'cause time will pass FAST FAST FAST. i hope. at least. haha, 'cause tomorrow's monday. hmm. let's hope time will pass faster tomorrow!! and everyday!! :D :D :D