Neutral Feelings.

Current Location: RP, E36P.
Current Music: Team 5's Powerpoint. :D

laughs. sians sianns sianns. it's only 3.34pm now.
nothing to do after this. wait for longfei, thn go
home, continue my story and such.

this morning when daddy asked me to come home
for dinner. i felt so free suddenly.

in the past,
mondays: trainings.
tuesdays: dry trainings sometimes.
wednesdays: trainings.
thurdays: no matter what will seems to have something.
fridays: pool train.

now, only mondays and wednesdays. tuesdays and
thursdays seems so .. free.

really am abit not used to it. in the past my life
only revolves around him and trainings. now
cant also le.

yikai. yikai this term i seems to be using it lesser
and lesser le. like, total stranger like tht.

hahas. is a good thing la. (:
when im typing all these, it's all neutral feelings
alr. jst like what i've told her. no sad feelings, no
bliss feelings. jst neutral.

dont know is a good thing ma, hahas. i know i
might still not be really over him le. but at least
now when she tells me things i'm still able to
face it with neutral feelings.

like, it's someone else's stuffs.

this kinda things really takes time. hahas.
after a longer time, i believe i'll be able to
face it almost naturally. hahas.

but this matter definitely affect me quite alot.
it made me lose the courage to step into love
again. even if there's someone.

it made me lose the courage to step in again.
not to step in,

is a wise decision. i guess.