Tattered and Torn.

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the definition of happiness. do you know it? do you have it? i guess everyone's definition's different ba. yours could be love, his could be family, hers could be friendships. so what's yours?

don't know what's wrong with me. jst felt emo, again. seriously don't know what's happening to me. i just need a corner all to myself. thinking about things, and sorting them out.

and it just dawn upon me. do i actually know how to love? and i just found out, no. the answer's no.

she just knows how to put in efforts, she just knows how to care for him. and when she likes him, her world only revolves around him. she doesn't care if there's anyone better who likes her. she doesn't care if someone better appears before her and demanded her attention. she doesn't care if the reason why he's happy is not because of her. she only wants him to be happy.

and now, she really need the feeling of being loved. read an article regarding beautiful heart which Eils introduced me. i gave you pieces of my heart, and in return, you gave me pieces of your heart. this "trade" won't be equal! for the amount of my heart i gave to you was so much more than the amount of your heart you gave me!

and i really wish to see, what is my heart like now? is it full of wounds and scars for i went through alot? or it is full of uneven edges for the "tradings" i had were always uneven.

guess, to prevent more uneven edges of her heart, she should stop giving pieces of her heart to anybody else. they don't worth it, do they? well she don't mean it in terms of friendships and family ties. but relationship.

for she's all worn out. from NH, to WYK. to now. guess her heart's all tattered and torn. why give your heart away only to be treated like trash? keep it with you, my girl. for it's only safe under your care. hadn't you noticed? the ones you had given your heart to, all got away blissfully.

you weren't the one who's feeling blissful. you've given your heart, your blissfulness to them to have their own blissfulness. why make such a "trade"? it's not worth it in any sense! bare it in your heart, keep your heart with you. it's all tattered and torn, nobody would want it anyway.

nobody would want it anyway..