Trust or Not

Current Location: Home, Room.
Current Music: 612 星球 - S.H.E.

something just struck me today and i've decided to blog about it. hmm. but it's the same old issue. trust. what is wrong with me? after that incident, practically after that incident.. i don't seem to be able to trust people anymore..

i'm not sure if she'd be happy upon reading this but i have no fear posting this out.. yes, it has been one year plus already. but the impact on me's really very great.

i used to be someone who would trust people readily. whatever people tell me, i'd believe. whatever people hope i'll believe, i'll believe too. and where has that landed me? in the dumps. because of you, i don't wish to admit that your impact is that great. but i did once had loads of trust in you. i did once trusted you so much that i practically told you everything.. but oh wells.

after that incident, i began to lose trust in friends, except for Kgang who had been with me for as long as i can remember. i'll doubt every moves they make. i'll doubt if their concerns were true. like, are they going to end up like her? paranoid yes i'd agree.

but what can i do? the one i've trusted loads betrayed me, betrayed my trust and had inflicted such a wound on me. how can i trust you people ever again?

i want to get back that trust i used to have in people. i want to get back my emotions i'd have in the past. but now .. my heart's as still as water. for even towards him, i've lost that heart-racing feeling..

can i ever possess back the trust in people? can i believe someone new ever? let me know soon. or even better, teach me how to trust..

She wished to go up the ferris wheel @ 11.38pm.