Current Location: RP ; E36P.
Current Music: Sheena - Almost Over You.
ytd's training was tough tough tough! ohmygod. im so damn shagged.
(i dont care what's the actual meaning. i jst wanna use this word.)
loads of sets la. and 3 at that! c'mon! jst kill me mann~!
but i really drat myself. idiot de. why is my leg so weak? and my left leg
especially. first time was at the NUS mass swim. now ytd at RP pool?
damn it. i was chin-towing peggy whn i got this cramp at my outer left
thigh. left leg again. idiot. okay i know im holding it on like no one else
business. even when longfei asked me to stop swimming, i continued.
not because im stubborn or what. it's because i wanna finish my set.
if not, i'll feel really useless. thus i continued lor. but not more than 3
tows, i really couldnt take it lor. *roll eyes*
in the middle of the pool once again, my cramp acted up. however,
this time round, there's no rope near by or anything. so peg pulled
me over to the rope. but the rope's not steady enough for me to
stretch my muscles.
until zhiwang came over. he's about to tow me back la, whn i pushed
his hand away. sorry la, i was shocked tht time la. cramped during
trgs? sorry no way. it had never happened before.
i asked zhiwang what's he's gonna do. and at tht point of time, i feel
like a complete idiot. to which he replied to a no sense qns,"tow you
back, of course! come."
to which i heed la. ohmygod. he's damn fast mann. and steady. it
felt safe la. hahas. thn he assisted me up. not long after which, he
came too. aiights. so it's not a disappointment after all. (:
they helped me ease the cramp. laughs, and whn im feeling better,
zhiwang was like, "whee, i can be a certified lifesaver alr!" hahas,
you are my boy. and off he go. thanks dude. (:
he's about to go too, after he's assured im feeling better. with peg.
i assured him im feeling fine alr. im positive. but the pain, is still
there la. i dont wan them to worry. i guess he saw through me,
-.- and swam back to me.
he helped me by telling me what to do. cuz it's like my thigh la.
and inside me im struggling, one side of me wants him to be
there telling me what to do. another side wants him to go away.
drats yvonne. bleah.
thn im really feeling better la. so i wanna continue my chin tow
and everything. thn he stopped me saying im in no condition
to swim. he even used longfei to stop me. saying the captain
had forbade me to swim. urghs.
yes i like the concern you're giving me. but this cramp. it's like
this blow to me tht i cant take it. it forms as a deny to my efforts.
to my everything.
do you know how hard it it to accept to be towed back by a
lifesaver whn you're a lifesaver yourself? i couldnt even hit
the bottom line! where i should place my own safety before
the victim. now in future, if i were to have cramp again when
im saving a victim, what should i do?
it's like a great blow to my pride, my dignity. i admit. im a
woman of great pride. but this incident really made me feel
useless. really useless.
'cause he dont allow me to swim back, i walked back lor. and
as i walked back. what went through my mind was, how useless
i was and everythng. urghs, damn yvonne goh la! f.
however, come to think again.
if not for zhiwang, i might be drown le la. and if tht's so, what's the
point of holding on to my own pride and dignity, ryte?
thanks people, i'll take good care of myself in future no matter what. (:
