somewhere over the rainbowww

recently life kinda bores me out!! and what, it's only been like 2 days since i last break campp? hmm. sigh aye aye.

alright alright, something did happen to me at the campsite. and it's not a pleasant one. one experience that had daddy mommy making me promise not to do camps anymoree. buuuut. :\

idkkk. i find time passing faster when i'm doing campps! all i have to do is, to follow the matrix, facilitate the kids, and blah blah blah. time pass faster! and now at home, time passes so slowly.

so. bottomline is i'll have to find a job. but what kinda job? i don't want to find just any job that's like meaningless to me. i want to do something that's of some fun. a job where i can gain some experience. :D

but what? :\

job aside. hmm.

alright, i know i'm not serious in you? and this is not the first time i'm tripping over you. but. gawddd. i really don't know what to do about you!! i find myself checking out your profile like a zillion times when there's practically nothing?? i find myself browsing back my history just to find some stupid inkling?? c'mon lahh, i bet i did that just because i'm boreddd right??? IT HAD BETTER BE.

nvm, things will turn out much better when the peak period for camp ends. yep, things will be better. kns! i've been counting on that only! keep hoping that things will straighten out itself when camp season end!! IT REALLY HAD BETTER BE.

eeeeeeeeeeeek. ):

go, yvonne goh! :D

recently, other than the word 'tired', i can't find another to describe my life. camps and kayaking and belaying. omg, it's draining my energy very quickly. but note the word, draining my 'energy', not 'life'. it's quite fun, and i'm enjoying every bit of it. therefore, it's quite alright and time pass quite fast. (:

sunburn from yesterday's kop, and arms are still aching now. =\ another camp tmr, and another one next week monday. sheesh.

yvonne go!

happy happy birthday! :D

happy birthday to karen! heh! twenty-one twenty-one twenty-one! hahaha!

just got back from breakf with the birthday girl (: silly girl slept with her contact lens last night! no wonder her eyes were drrrry. haha. hope she enjoy her day with a blast today! :D

sigh aye aye! i'm doing camp for camelot later! godd! it's so damn far! sian sian sian sian sian!

can i tell pauline i don't wanna do the camp? :D

sigh, no. ):

boring > scary ):

boring boring boring
boring boring boring

omg life is so boring now! thank god i'm gng to amk hub ltr with linsgf to buy rensgf's 21st. heh. else i can set a record of not stepping out of my house for like 2 days? grrr.

doing camps this coming thursday and friday, and the whole of next week. sheesh. sounds tiring! but! better than not having anything to do. (:

and i bought the camping bag! heheheh now my shoulder won't hurt so muchhh HEHE

after next week, i think i wanna do more camps from camp challenge or innotrek. (: chiong more camps, earn more money and save up.

i really should learn how to save up already. for the rainy days. i'm turning 21 this year. 21 alr. and i'm penniless. how shameful is that. ):

yesterday i had to borrow money from mom/dad to buy the present for rensgf. =\ i dont know why, i feel really guilty about that. though it's about borrowing, and i'll return, i still feel that; asking money from your parents at the age of 20 is like a big nono.

so! after i got the money from the camps, i'll save it up. heh, probably put it with mom. so that i won't spend it away.

and get a decent job. ): the moment i've feared so long is finally going to be here. get a decent job for a year and apply for uni again next year. doubt i'll be able to make it to local uni.

give up my dreams? ): ):

decisions > affecting your life

perhaps i shouldn't have finish watching Down With Love at such a fast speed. now i feel damn lost can! nothing to do, nothing to look forward to. ):

gahhhh!

sigh, i miss kgang ):
i miss karen and her stupid comments.
i miss carol and her lame lame jokes.
i miss jielin and her slow reactions.
i miss jasmin and her witty thinkings.
i miss tzemin and her lousy chinese.

): we didn't even have a reunion dinner this time rounddd. and it's all due to our super crazy hectic lives.

sigh, now that i've graduated. i'm really at lost as to what to do! study? work? or to pursue my dreams?

study > how i wish! but i've got no money! and i can't possibly get daddy mommy to mortage our flat?! that is like so uuber scary!! ): no, no way!!

work > what can i work as?! something that i love does not seem that possible. ): do something i totally have NO interest in? no way too!!

pursue my dreams > how i very very much wish too!! but, i'm not sure how much hope can i put in this. i've been wishing for this dream to come true for like ... 4 years? sigh, but now that i'm free, no sch no nothing, i can truely put my heart and soul into making it happen! hmm.

tough decision to make. =\

please give me some guidance, please.

graduate, no?

UT 3 for Sports Biz, CCM and Leisure Planning are down. left with Sports Coaching and OL tomorrow @ 0830 hr and 1400 hr respectively.

after that, i'll be a free person totally. a free person who has no more school. a free person who is free to choose what path she wants to embark on now.

a path that she has to stick to, the path that would decide her future for her.

and all of the sudden, she doesn't feel like graduating out of RP.

cause graduating out of RP would means,

x. not being able to see her beloved course mates as regularly as how is now.
x. not being able to fool around with her beloved course mates every now and then.
x. not being able to do things productive as how she was doing.
x. not using much of her brains.
x. not much socialising.

OMG. ): I AM SO GOING TO MISS THEMMMMMMM. ):
at the thought of this, i dont want to graduate again! ):

empty, emptied

everybody has got a past, right?

you can't possibly meet someone new,
and expect that someone to be as empty as you are, right?

when you want to throw away your past,
you can't possibly expect that someone to throw away his, right?

when you are tattered and torn,
hoping that someone will pick you up to sew you back,

you can't just hope, right?

right.

i wish i knew.

does it mean that i like you
when the thought of you brings a smile to my face?

does it mean that i like you
when i hope to see you everyday?

does it mean that i like you
when i get upset easily because of you?

does it mean that i like you
when my heart goes thump thump at the sight of you?

does it mean that i like you
when i need to breathe hard to fill the hole in my chest at the thought of you?

does it mean that i like you
when you remind me of my past failures?

does it mean that i like you
when i hope to find more linkage between us?

does it mean that i like you
when i'm raking my brains to think of topics to talk to you?

does it mean that i like you
when i wish i could read your mind sometimes?

does it mean that i like you
when i wonder what would happen between us?



i wish i knew.

boring sports biz

omg. class is so boring cann. i had never liked 'Sports Business' much. and this morning's lazing in bed mood totally caught up to me. sigh. boring! :\

i got so excited when i saw him sitting there. silly me. :\

Race Start 2010!

Current Location: Home, Room.
Current Music: Ring Ding Dong - SHINee.

A headstart to 2010, a RJ question I shall give. (: Heh. Kidding! It's just one RJ (my first RJ of the year) that I find interesting. (:

Reflect on your learning experience today. Write about it like how you would write in your own journal/blog.

School was tiring today! I guess it was because of the building holiday energy within me that's not dissipating yet. I hope my energy level will come back soon! Don't like the feeling of not achieving anything fruitful after a day in school, which would make me feel as though I had not learnt anything.

Today’s OL was about the transferring of learning. I had never thought much of transferring whatever we had learnt as long as there was debrief. Perhaps even when I had transfer, I had no idea that I had done that actually.

Things like perhaps the comfort zone, panic zone thing; I had linked it to life countless times when I had no idea it was actually a mode of transferring.

Like me linking myself to being at the comfort zone all the time is really no joke. I can’t trust people readily, not always willing to take a step out to make more new friends. I am in my own comfort zone and I am happy with it. This can be a mode of transferring too, I guess.

When doing camps, I would link debriefs to life, always. Others might think that I’m being somewhat of trying to be a philosopher or something? I don’t know and I don’t care. Because I think that by linking what the participants had done to life is always very inspiring to them and can inspire them to achieve some things they thought they had never been able to achieve.

Like teaching the participants navigations for examples; I told the participants that the compasses in their lives are their parents, their teachers and their instructors. They would direct them to the right direction; however, whether they will follow is another matter and such.

Inspiring debrief, my partner told me and that he liked it, because he can relate to what I was talking about.

This, I believe would be the metaphoric transfer. See! I’m able to relate back to what I’ve learnt for today!

Lastly, I believe every little thing in life would be able to allow us to reflect on it and transfer the learning to every other thing as well.

Therefore, never stop learning! Never stop exploring!

(P.S. Sorry PK if it’s full of randomness! Because, that’s really how I would blog! Will put this as one of my entry! Thank you!)