아쉬운 마음인걸

Current Location: Home, Dad & Mom's Room.
Current Music: Lucky - Ashily.

Things can be really ironic in life, don't you think? When one thing caused you to be in such state, it can be the only thing you are left with sometimes...

If only I hadn't participated in that lifesaving competition, things won't be in such state. And I won't be facing such problems. My first lifesaving competition ever, and it had became my last competition for lifesaving too...

My back ached up again. And when I meant again, I meant it that I had already been to the doctor last week and I had to go back again yesterday...

I'm currently still on MC. For two days, to be exact. Because I couldn't move my legs yesterday morning for a period of 15 to 30 minutes. That feeling was really quite scary. Imagine, you were getting ready to go to work. And when you were about to go snooze your alarm, you realized that you can't move your legs at all. That memory was still quite taunting. It was only until a while, 15 to 30 minutes I guess, that I could move again.

Rang Jasmine up, to tell her that I can't meet her and why. Called Jay to tell her what happened exactly, and Pei Zhi to tell her I'm not going in for work that day.

Managed to go to my previous doctor for my back. And he mentioned something that sent shivers down my back. The last time I went to see him regarding my back was 30th June 2008. This period of time too but last year. And this pattern occurred not only last year and this. But my every back injury. Not that I had appointment every year, but that my back would always act up severely every year.

Fell down very severely when I was in Primary Four, in the toilet. I was already ready to go visit the doctor that very day when I sat on a faulty chair with wheels. And again I fell on my back, resulting in me not able to move. I remembered Dad and Mom being very anxious, rushing me to the doctor.

From then on, my back had been acting up. It was only until last year's lifesaving NUS Invitational that I reinjured it severely again. I can't bend, my walking posture was awkward, and I can't even sleep properly.

This time round? Was the spotter for a really heavy man while he was doing abseiling. And OMG, he was already reaching the ground and he had to jump again! I was holding him already, so when he jumped, the force was on me, on my back. Ready to see the doctor again when I fell in the toilet after washing my clothes. Seriously WTH to the maxxxxx.

Had to go see the doctor again yesterday was because that unable to move my leg incident. The doctor said that because something was pressing against my nerves. That's why I couldn't move for a period of time. Most prolly because of the long period of sitting in the office.

He too said that I can't do any more exercises. Only one. Which would bring good benefit to me. Swimming. I'm only left with swimming. Hah. How ironic right? Swimming was the one which caused me to reinjure it so severly that I can't do anymore exercises for three months last year. And now, I'm only left with swimming as a sport.

But thank god swimming wasn't stripped away from me. Else I really had no idea what I could do, have no idea what I would do.

Left with two more months till my IIP would end. I can still continue doing my duties such as kayaking, belaying etc. But I should expect more of such incidents, the numbing effect I meant. Ways to counter? Rest more after such activities. Sighs, I guess that would be what I should do now.

Sigh. Don't know for what reason, I'm feeling kind of lost. Sheesh.

She wished to go up the ferris wheel @ 5.07.pm.

Camelot Pte Ltd

Current Location: Camelot Pte Ltd, Admin Office.
Current Music: -

Hieeee! Haha, wondering why I'm able to blog at this time? Lol, 'cause I had nothing to do. ): Because of my stupid back! I'm being excused from the Land Expedition in Ubin with Bishan Park Sec! Rarr! And to think I was looking so forward to it ('cause I can lose some fats). Sigh aye aye.

So now I'll have to do some admin stuffs. For the rest of this week. GOD. Looking at the time now, it's only 12.43 pm. 12.43 pm! And I had nothing to do already. Sheesh. Peizhi, Gracina and Alicia went for a break. Will go ask them what can I do later, when they are back. Else, I can continue learning my Korean language! Haha.

Learnt it once before, but gave up because I had better spent time studying for my O's. Haha. Now I'll pick it up again. Else life is going to get so bored! With nothing to look forward to, nothing to enjoy.

So during this period of time, I want to master Korean, and too master the technique of guitar. Haha! I had Norman and Douglas as my teachers for guitar, so no worries for that. And Jasmine's learning it with me too. So I'll have companion! Lol!

This week marks the eighth week of our attachment. Eighth week out of the sixteen weeks we're going to stay here. Which meant half, another eight more weeks will mark the end of our attachment. (:

Next week I'll be doing GI for PL Primary with Lam. They're a bunch of super cute fellas! Haha! Looking so forward to it~

Alright, I want to get back to learning Korean already. Ciaos! :D

She wished to go up the ferris wheel @ 1.01.pm.

Happy 18th Birthday! :D

Current Location: Home, Study Room.
Current Music: 내 머리가 나빠서 (Because I'm Stupid) - SS501.

Happy 18th birthday, Eileen! (: (: (:

Haha, finally she's turned eighteen. Lol, a legal lady. Haha. Hope you enjoy your day kays, dear sis. Eighteen do seem like a nice age; pretty smart, legal ... Haha. I realised I keep mentioning the word legal. Haha. Hey! Since we're both legal now, let's do something one day kays?! But of course we won't let Dad and Mom know. Haha. Or not. Then we'll include them in. Laughs. Enjoy your prime times darling, for you'll turn twenty in two years time, which means you're no longer a teen. Uck? Haha, I see it in a different light now. (: Wish you all the best, sister! Loves you thousand of tons! :D

P.S. I'm using my new laptop to type this entry. Honoured eh? The first entry I've returned to post after so long with my new laptop's regarding youuuu. Haha!

(Sigh aye aye, have to return to work tmr. With my lousy back ... Sigh, hope it'll recover soon soon soon. So that I won't feel so crippled ...)

She wished to go up the ferris wheel @ 8.43.pm.

Pierce Sec Oei! :D

Current Location: Home, Living Room.
Current Music: -

Okay, I'm currently using Daddy's laptop. Haha, 'cause my own laptop is so super uuper slow! And the reason why I want to blog now instead of sleeping is because ... I'm not going to use my laptop for like, 2 days? And I've got tons of things to blog about. Haha!

18th May 2009 - 20th May 2009 marks the days of my first camp as a G.I. attachee; Pierce Secondary School. (:

It's really an experience that I valued a lot. They were secondary school kids, a bit of the hard side to lead. 'Cause they thinks they know everything, but in actual fact, they're only trying to act cool. How I know? 'Cause I've been through that phase too. HAHA.

I'm in-charge of Team 3, attached to Zee Shan aka Zee. He's a good G.I. Really, he can facilitate well, participants can really relate well to him. Haha, I can say that I've learnt so much from him. (:

First day activities included the water activities. (: Kayaking, sea-rafting and river crossing. My team didn't get to do kayaking 'cause of wet weather. Lol, and our team members were upset over it! Lol, 'cause they said that they spent $90+ to kayak. o.o Lol. Kind of cute right? Haha.

Lights off at 11pm plus, had a debrief with our Camp Chief; Sky which ended at 1am plus. Sheesh. And we immediately went to bed. 'Cause there's a whole long stretch of activities waiting for us the next day.

Second day was even more tiring. God. Land activities for my side the whole day. Abseiling, wall climbing, followed by the Challenge Rope Course. Sheesh. And Jay made me go up the Challenge Pole again! Rarrr! Lol. The one I had for final challenge at Pre-IIP Camp at RP. Lol. And again, I didn't get to catch it again. ): ): But what matters was that I did dare to go up and jump. Lol, and that only happened because I don't want to lose my pride in front of my campers. Lol!

Had campfire night, and we were told to set up the campfire sitting arrangment and the fire. Definitely a new experience for me. Haha, 'cause I've never set up a campfire from scratch before. And I like it! Haha!

The second night ended a little bit later. Same time for lights off, but debrief ended a bit later. 1.30am. However~ We need to settle some stuffs for our campers which is due the next morning when they leave. So, most of us ended up sleeping at round 3am to 4am plus. God. And we have to wake up at 6am plus. Which left us about 2 hrs to sleep.

Jasmine and I woke up with our eyes closed man! Lol! We can't even put on our contact lens! Lol. Which turn out my campers were saying that I'm not their Instructor Yvonne anymore. Lol, kind of cute to me. Haha!

Break camp, la la la. And we had the day off! Haha! So I reached home at round 6pm plus. 'Cause I went to meet Eils. I hadn't saw her for ages! Haha!

After this camp, there's more camps coming up. Most of them back-to-back. So I'll be expecting myself to be staying there for quite some time. Sigh aye aye. Can foresee that I'll be very tired. Lol.

Okay, I'm so super tired now. Ending off here, bye people. (:

She wished to go up the ferris wheel @ 12.02.am.

You'll Never Understand

Current Location: Home, Living Room.
Current Music: David Archuleta - A Little Too Not Over You.

Just finished my weekly essays for the week. Sheesh, I'm really beginning to lose the ideas to write about the essays. Hope the camps we're going to have will refresh whatever I have. (:

Tomorrow's the camp for Pierce Sec as a Group Instructor Attachee. Secondary school, hmm. Something I don't really have confidence in. If it's primary school, I'll have a bit of confidence. 'Cause of coaching, you see.

But nonetheless, I'll still have to face it. And whenever I thought of the camp, my heart will leap into a race and I don't know why. Gahh. Have to get to Camelot by 9pm tonight, 'cause there's a briefing. Sheesh. Sky's the camp chief for this camp, will get to see how he works now. (:

Hmm. I realized one thing though. Other than losing the ideas for write the essays, I think I've too lost my touch to blog. I can't seem to blog as I wish now. And I really like to wonder why. Bleah.

Nevermind what it is. I shall just blog down in point-forms about the things that happened recently. (:

• Gossip Girl Season Two's gonna air its last episode tomorrow in the States. Darn. Would have to wait till August!.
• I'm so going to miss Chuck Bass and Blair Waldorf.
• Had kayak expedition on Wednesday when I experienced my first sea-sickness.
• Which too leaves my whole body lingering in pain, against those waves and currents and wind. Gahh.
• Went to collect my pay and TST today.
• I miss those kids so so much!
• Justine, Joey, Edward, Kang Qi. OMG.
  

Okay, I think that's all I have to report. Lol. Shall go tie up some loose ends of packing. (: Ciaos. (:

She wished to go up the ferris wheel @ 3.54.pm.

Just one more time,

Current Location: Home, Living Room.
Current Music: David Archuleta - Your Eyes Don't Lie.

I need a notebook. No, I need a journal. To pen down my thoughts for these 16 weeks, Sky's idea. Nice actually, maybe I should drop a visit to the Artbox some time. Two weeks had flew by, well. Not really flew by, but drove by. And it's the third week tomorrow, the admin week. Since our mentors, aka the intructors are on leave from tomorrow onwards.

After next week, we'll get real busy. 'Cause it's the camp week. Whoo. Being a GI attachee. Haha.

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Celebrated Mothers' Day with Dad's side of the family yesterday at The Yan Palace. Omg, it has been ages since we last went there! And I really missed the food theree. YUMMM.

The main leads should had been the Moms. But Baby Leon ended up the main lead, as per usual. Haha!

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Time to do another WE. And another, since we'll be busy the next week. Gahhh. Two in a row, and I have no idea how to go about doing it, again. Sheesh.

Bye, people.

She wished to go up the ferris wheel @ 5.25.pm.

One whole chunk of potent released,

Current Location: Home, Living Room.
Current Music: With Me - Sum 41.

It had been so long since I last heard this song. Haha. And it has also been quite some time since I last blogged. Haha.

But there's a reason why I'm blogging today despite the fact that I'm super tired, and I still have to wake up freaking early tomorrow.

'Cause I'm so freaking unlucky today! Grrr.

First, I had diarrhoea this morning. And dumb, I didn't even think of not going to work. Ugh. Am still having the runs all the way even when I reached Camelot. :/ That's the first.

Second, I was caught unprepared and had to go down into the waters today. I didn't bring my wet gear. :/ :/ So imagine what a mess I was in even after I bathed. No undies to change into. Ugh x10. ):

Third, I got stung by a jellyfish today. DAMN. After the kayak thing we had, I idled in the water l like the rest. Halfway through the idling, I felt a stung on my left wrist. Saw nothing initially and Jay asked if it's like one sting or multiple stings. I couldn't really differentiate the pain. So maybe it's some plankton, 'cause there's no lines or something.

But. The stinging sensation continued and I began shouting in pain. THEN. The lines showed. Seriously damn it man, it's the jellyfish sting. The lines surfaced on my skin and it spread. Pandian poured vinegar on it, so that it will ease the pain. And lol, the rest were like saying human pee would work better. So they all want to pee on my hand. LOL. Madness, I rather use the vinegar, first. Haha!

Okay, I've sent Jay the Weekly Essay. So now I'm going to update my MP4, then pack my bag with my wet gear and off to bed I'll go! Ciaos people! :D

She wished to go up the ferris wheel @ 10.16.pm.

There's always a first to everything, (or not)

Current Location: Home, Room.
Current Music: Give You Hell - All American Rejects.

First week of IIP's over! Haha! All of us were like so happy when Thursday arrived. Lol. It's really such a chore, when we had to make our way down there and out of there. Sheesh. But we're beginning to realize the fun side of it. (:

The first day of IIP, eh no. The first week of IIP's actually observing. (: Observing how the G.I.s (Group Instructors) works. For example like, how they would interact with the kids, how they would teach them to work together and stuffs.

The first day when we reported to work, there's a bunch of kids from Qi Hua Pri Sch reporting for camp at the same time. Initially the six of us got quite bored just standing there, doing nothing. Until after lunch, Sky (our mentor) gave us something to do, to observe them. When we got engaged more.

It's kind of interesting actually, how they got the whole camp to work, to go on.

The same goes on for the second and third day, observing and more observing. Just that the second day was much more of fun because we get to go down into the water to kayak! To help out with the sequences and to ease the chaos. Though I think we did nothing much except to kayak around to tell the kids where to go. Lol.

It's still quite alright. (: And god, kept having the feeling that today's Sunday. But no it's Saturday. Lol. Okay, work again on Monday. Sheesh.

Sky's asking Pandian (Camelot's staff) if we can stay in the dormitory instead. 'Cause it's really a chore for us to wake up early in the morning and get back home late. So I'd much rather they'll allow us to stay in the dorm. This way, it'll be better for me. Really, kind of tired of everything at home ... I wonder if it's really a home actually ...

Nonetheless. I just hope we'll get to stay in the dorm! :D Okay, time to get back to writing the Weekly Essays (WE) for the week past. And I have no idea how to go about doing it. Sighs.

She wished to go up the ferris wheel @ 5.59.pm.

Attachment IIP

Current Location: Home, Living Room.
Current Music: -

I'm starting my IIP tomorrow. Sheesh. Work starts at 9am. All the way to Changi. God. Plus, I don't know what time I will end work. Sigh.

Training week tomorrow. Hmm, and I don't know what to expect tomorrow! Ugh. Training week ... What do we have to train?! Our guts and all? There's no need! We had prepared ourselves with the camp we had last week already! Haha!

Whatever it is, I have to work till August. :| I'm so going to miss school. Okay, I want to go pack my bag already. Bye and nights peopl! Will try to blog as often as I can about the IIP. Lol. Seriously hope we'll be able to cope it. (:

Present DOAL mates, future working mates, to Jasmine, Norman, Russell, Douglas and Lam. (:

She wished to go up the ferris wheel @ 9.31.pm.

Learn and Cherish

Current Location: Home, Living Room.
Current Music: Lady Gaga - Paparazzi.

I'M BACK FROM CAMP, PEOPLE. Haha! 5 days 4 night's gone just like that. Laughs, and I'm please to say that I really enjoyed it a lot. Haha. I'll break down the entries into 5 entries; one on each day. So ... you can choose to either read it or not.

The entries will be below! Lol, will be editing the time later. *grins* Before I start breaking down on what happened, in these 5 days, I think I'll start off with what I've learnt and feel about this camp? Haha. Of course I can, it's my blog. LOL.

Okay okay, jokes aside. I really enjoyed this camp seriously. I mean, apart from missing my family and friends, apart from missing my phone and laptop, apart from missing out on updates from intothetwilight.net, it's really alright. I really like it.

The people are fun, the activities are interesting and challenging, the time were being managed pretty well, the whole camp wasn't too stressing or tight.

Also from this camp, I've learnt the importance of a lot of other stuffs. Things like water, wind, and our fan. The basics of our life, and how dependent we are on it. More on that later. (:

Through this camp, I've learnt a lot from David and Pamela; our trainers, and my team mates; Amundsen, and too Hilary; our camp mates. I've learnt to think like a trainer, know what to expect for my IIP and am actually finding myself looking forward to it.

The people too! I've grew closer to them, much closer. Before this camp, yes I did know everybody 'cause I was in every classes (thanks for changing class everyday, eh? -.-). But we were all acquaintances, hi-bye friends, I would say. But through this camp, we've bonded really close. And I really like it. (: (:

Though we won't see each other for four months, I believe we'll still be able to catch up on each other.

Haha, alright. Ready to begin the next entry; Day 1, 20th April 2009.